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Tag Archives: confidence
R.S.A.D.
the fatigue washed over me as I had never been washed over before. It did more than that. it nullified me. actually, that’s an overstatement. as far as i know, i am not completely nullified. i am here. maybe a … Continue reading
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Tagged confidantes, confidence, reverse seasonal affective disorder, RSAD
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Core work
I had breakfast with a British chap, a friend I’ve known since my formative years, which are still forming. He ordered the French toast. I ordered the eggs. He asked me how my work was going. When I last saw … Continue reading
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Tagged approval, art, attention, confidence, core, eggs, french toast, marketing, motivation, strength
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the unforgiven
i know this (among many other things) might sound really insecure, but whenever I send out a message–voice or email–to a friend who does not respond, i somehow convince myself that i have said or done something terribly, heinously and … Continue reading
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Tagged apology, arrogance, communication, confidence, email, forgiveness, friends, narcissism, neurosis, voice mail
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meeting expectations
at work today, they surprised me with my first (and hopefully final) 6-month performance review. I mostly “met expectations,” but i “need improvement” in my communication skills. By October 2013, my bosses expect me to have completed some sort of … Continue reading
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Tagged assertiveness, confidence, group-think, groups, meeting expectations, performance review, pride, standards
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the lion’s share
as i feared, this is indeed turning out to be the week where i am being exposed as a fraud. at work, they are asking me to do more and more things that require knowledge and expertise in matters of … Continue reading
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Tagged apology, confidence, exposed, fraud, impressions, learning, smart, understanding, work
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inauthentic
my lack of confidence that i once thought i hid so well is not quite as hidden as it used to be. it might just be me, but i think people are beginning to notice. or maybe it’s just being so vulnerable at … Continue reading
erroneous
i don’t know what it is about me that can’t accept any decision i make, that constantly, voraciously questions the choices i make. as soon as i reach 1 decision, i see only calamity and doom. while the choice i … Continue reading
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Tagged choice, confidence, decision, doom, faith, fear, guilt, happiness, shame, trepidation, trust
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confidence, day 2
day 2 of my feigning confidence experiment. it’s off to a rough start so far. we all were sitting across from each other in this conference room. at the conference table. i guess it was my turn to speak, but … Continue reading
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Tagged conference room, confidence, leave, people, stay, unconfidence
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what i did
all i did in the world today has been take take take. i can tell you that i am taking for my own survival. or maybe not taking, but sealing off from giving. because all i can think about is … Continue reading
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Tagged coconut water, comfort, confidence, courage, existence, food, give, ink, intent, nothing, paper, subsidize, take, time, wireless, work
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