Monthly Archives: December 2019

It’s amazing how a 1 day road trip can shake up one’s consciousness out of the doldrums. That’s kind of what happened when I went to Dia:Beacon and continues 2 days later. Which I didn’t expect. I just met this … Continue reading

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somebody told me i should be writing. so i asked, have you seen my writing lately? this person look bewildered. I said “I am guessing you have not seen it because if you had, you might think i should be … Continue reading

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made it

Danbury Connecticut After 3 days of non-decision, I finally decided to take a little road trip to Beacon, NY specifically to visit Dia Beacon which I have not yet seen and who knows how much longer I’ll be out on … Continue reading

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The challenge

The challenge is quite challenging. Quite. How to fend off abject loneliness and a sense of failure as a human over the holidays. Am I up for the challenge? Sigh. I’m really not sure.

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Not terrible news

Today may have been a first. The first time a doctor called me to tell me news that was not terrible. In this case, I don’t have knee cancer. Only I would be at risk for something like cancer of … Continue reading

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Kitchenwhere

At this moment I am listening to the dishwasher which might be the first music I’ve heard all day. I am not sure why I turned it on. There were no dishes to wash. In fact, there are no dishes … Continue reading

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On the train. Numb and fatigued. It’s the numbness that I’m really concerned about. It looks like I’m not going anywhere for the time being. And that concerns me, too. The job plods on. I search for change but it … Continue reading

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Irritating, Irritated

Everything off-kilter. I do not do very well with less than 4 hours of sleep. My timing was off all day. Which made me irritated. Although hopefully not irritating. I would be the last one to know. Actually I can’t … Continue reading

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Option A

OK. I’ve been meaning to ask you something, but I’ve never been sure how best to articulate it … but how can you tell if A. ¬†You are talented but not demonstrating it nearly enough to get noticed, thus denying … Continue reading

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Heavy niceness

My friend C was complaining about my friend H who is her co-worker but not her friend and apparently H talks a lot at work. It sounds like H talks and talks and talks. I guess that would bother me, … Continue reading

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addition/subtraction

It’s Sunday night at 8:00 and I just realize I have not spoken a word in 29 hours. And if I subtracted the 1 hour I spent talking to my therapist yesterday, I have not spoken to a soul in … Continue reading

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