Monthly Archives: April 2013

my latest excuse

i’ve been sneezing so often today, i think i may have pulled a muscle in my face, if that is possible. too congested to eek out anything coherent tonight. or that is my excuse. there is always an excuse for … Continue reading

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my oasis

i have to apologize. i look back at the writing i’ve done over the past week or so, and i think, gosh, that sounds so negative. i don’t mean to sound like such a downer. i don’t feel like a … Continue reading

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re-purpose me

the last door on my possible exit from this city closed on me today, and i have to tell myself that this is just the way it is, for now. i might as well make the best of it, for … Continue reading

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spillage

everyday i come here, to this blog, it is my solemn intent to never talk about my job, but i have no choice other than to be honest with you,  and admit that this job is really getting to me … Continue reading

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backspace

there are moments when a person might wonder what is the purpose of having a blog? why even bother?  the things that are going on inside my head are not anything i would want anyone to see outside my head. … Continue reading

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jello

i just returned home from the queasy experience of visiting my mother in the hospital, a mere few hours after her back surgery. but it was not entirely the experience of seeing her that made me queasy. i feel awful … Continue reading

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vacuuming

i’m in one of my ignoring/avoiding phases these days. ignoring calls, texts, emails. avoiding talking to people at work, avoiding anything that may demand a response of some sort. i’m just not in the mood. as you read these words, … Continue reading

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tax day

a day of lethargic, numbing despondence that i just could not rise above. sometimes writing can transform my literal world, but not tonight. hopefully tomorrow.

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un-asked question

how come some people get to be Ornette Coleman while others do not? those of us who are not Ornette Coleman can only gaze in wonder. in all of my years of not being Ornette Coleman, i’ve never thought to … Continue reading

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on a bender

another titanium neck migraine day which i tried to wash down in a bender of Dunkin Donuts coffee followed by 2 glasses of pear sake at my new favorite sushi joint. this came shortly after I tore my Patagonia down … Continue reading

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de-lusioned

there was a time when i just assumed i lived a charmed life. not charmed in the sense of always feeling magical and carefree. but more charmed in the sense that no matter how difficult things were on the outside, … Continue reading

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de-planed

i hope you don’t mind… well… um… i’m kind of wondering if you could do me a favor. And feel free to say “no.” It’s OK. I know you have a lot on your plate right now. i’m sure i … Continue reading

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Boston to Beijing, sans Beijing

tonight i found myself on a flight from Boston to Beijing, with a stop in Chicago. I am not sure why I got off the plane in Chicago. Was it fear? Was it laziness about coming up with another excuse … Continue reading

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not me

i like to think of myself as the kind of person who is not hostile, inhospitable, contemptuous, malicious, vindictive, pugnacious, rascalian, mean-spirited, morose, embittered, rageful, impetuous, virulent, vile, vengeful, willful, grasping, meglomaniacal, venomous, deceitful, traitorous, treacherous, depraved, villainous, corruptive, morally … Continue reading

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things to develop

a difficult day at work again. I am too weary to write about it. I must develop a more care-free attitude, a nonchalance, a thicker skin.  but i am too weary to develop that tonight.

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