Monthly Archives: August 2012

Against rejection

Posted on August 31, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

My question today is what is the average rebound time needed to recover from rejection? 5 minutes? 5 days? 5 years? Why do all rejections feel somewhat like rejection? Why do they always carry the same weight? What constitutes them? … Continue reading →

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my 1000 miles of driving hit me like…  um… I was going to say “sledgehammer,” but it was more like a tsunami of fatigue and I had the good fortune of having a mattress nearby to collapse into late in … Continue reading →

Posted on August 30, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian | Leave a comment

the night so dark and blurry…

Posted on August 29, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

… I left town in a hurry. and I was far from home. for hours and hours I drove and drove, sometimes stopping, but then more and more hours of driving and driving. I drove and drove until I could … Continue reading →

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walls with paper

Posted on August 28, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

I am writing to you from the Doubletree Hotel in Rochester, Minnesota. I have been here for about 6 hours and I just noticed that the wallpaper is a rather tasteful white with greenish tint. What compelled me to be … Continue reading →

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Lori or Laurie

Posted on August 26, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

I slept last night on a fold-out couch at my sister’s place, with a layer of memory foam. I’m in love with memory foam, sinking into it. it’s so lush and comforting. this woman appeared in my dream who I … Continue reading →

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churn, churn, churn

Posted on August 26, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

drove across the Midwest plaines into other Midwest plaines. Goal: Des Moines Iowa The intention: to clean the attic. of my psyche. to be present in the music accompanying me. the music part seemed to be going quite well, but … Continue reading →

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raked by indecision

Posted on August 25, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

is the expression ‘raked by indecision’? no… that was just me imagining something I heard. what i meant to saw was wracked by indecision. the state i have been these past 24 hours. i easily could have made things happen, … Continue reading →

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a very quick post as it is very very late and long past my expiration hour. today was one of those days where there were so many moments of embarrassment. so many moments, I could not possibly count them all. … Continue reading →

Posted on August 24, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian | Leave a comment

over-over-tired

Posted on August 23, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

have you ever had one of those days where you are sooooooo incredibly tired that you are too tired to sleep? you kind of drag yourself off the couch where you’ve been nodding off… into bedroom and when you lie … Continue reading →

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The Oracle is always right

Posted on August 22, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

free from hyperbole, I plowed through infamy, waiting for rescue and redemption. My Oracle told me the big problem, the big thing I was hung up upon was this waiting… waiting for help from The OutSide. Help I can only … Continue reading →

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Maybe it was all a dream,…

Posted on August 21, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

Maybe it was all a dream, or maybe it was just a text. i can no longer tell the difference.

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a strange peace …

Posted on August 21, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

that came over me today. I’m not quite sure when, where or how it happened. it’s not something I expected or hoped for or prayed for. it just sort of happened. the only real explanation I can think of is … Continue reading →

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Bob Hope, swimming

Posted on August 19, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

Early this morning, I dreamed that I saw Bob Hope entering a large body of water to swim what I think was the English Channel. The entire scene was in beautiful, deep and cinematic black and white… kind of like … Continue reading →

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guardian angel

Posted on August 18, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

he makes regular featured or cameo appearances in my dreams… my much beloved and greatly missed English Mastiff… always protective and comforting…. sometimes struggling as he did in those final weeks. I am not the best at remembering my dreams. … Continue reading →

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solidifying

Posted on August 17, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

i am writing to you now to distract myself from things i could be writing about if i had the clarity and the courage to write about them. i can trace some of my reluctance to some day-old kale salad … Continue reading →

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