Tag Archives: courage

importance

last night i went to a reading by a sort of a friend (or friend of a friend) who is on a book tour for her new autobiographical graphic novel. which i am now reading, and it’s sort of a … Continue reading

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feedback loop

my latest video

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pretend harder

i’ve been trying to figure out why i am so bad at work or work-related presentations–and why they feel so different than performing. is it because i feel like i am being scrutinized and judged based upon criteria that have … Continue reading

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possibly something

this may possibly become something else, but I’m not quite sure it’s there yet. some people on the radio tonight were talking about the differences between courage and fearlessness. Since I was listening while driving across the continent, I only picked … Continue reading

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the boxer

someone on the radio was talking about the difference between courage and fearlessness. since i was listening while driving, i was only half-attentive and i wish the other half of me could listen to the other half of his explanation … Continue reading

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iowa (2)

i’ve spent a lot of time these past few days in iowa contemplating how, oftentimes, art, creative engagement with the world, can sometimes be my one act of defiance. And it’s a defiance that i need to exist in the … Continue reading

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Boston to Beijing, sans Beijing

tonight i found myself on a flight from Boston to Beijing, with a stop in Chicago. I am not sure why I got off the plane in Chicago. Was it fear? Was it laziness about coming up with another excuse … Continue reading

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inauthentic

my lack of confidence that i once thought i hid so well is not quite as hidden as it used to be. it might just be me, but i think people are beginning to notice. or maybe it’s just being so vulnerable at … Continue reading

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where i am

when i look back upon my blog posts, it pains me to notice how repetitive i can be… writing the same things over and over again using different words in different combinations … but always always the same things. such … Continue reading

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Yom Kippur eve

So far, i have atoned very minimally, if at all. i woke up with a yearning to atone, but really, what constitutes atonement? forgiveness for my moments of selfishness that were really not about acquiring things, but more selfish, perhaps, … Continue reading

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what i did

all i did in the world today has been take take take. i can tell you that i am taking for my own survival. or maybe not taking, but sealing off from giving. because all i can think about is … Continue reading

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