Tag Archives: shame

Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer

Sitting in a coffee shop on the eve of the Electoral College vote, with “Rudolph, the Red-Nosed Reindeer” playing on the shitty tinny sound system. I try to tune it out, but it’s the saddest version I’ve ever heard. The … Continue reading

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a bad maneuver

i’ve been feeling terrible about something not that terrible that happened to me the other day. actually, it didn’t happen to me. it happened with me being where it happened. On a train. A crowded train at rush hour. When … Continue reading

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transcendental

it’s been a night of shame. not a shameful night. you see, there’s a big difference. i am talking about the kind of shame one feels immediately in the presence, or even in the virtualĀ presence, of someone who precipitates shame … Continue reading

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leave of absence

i’ve decided to take a break from writing, which i know is maybe one of the worst things i could do. and it’s a shame, too. such a shame. because so much of my writing energy is getting sapped and … Continue reading

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erroneous

i don’t know what it is about me that can’t accept any decision i make, that constantly, voraciously questions the choices i make. as soon as i reach 1 decision, i see only calamity and doom. while the choice i … Continue reading

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