Monthly Archives: February 2014

the equation

Posted on February 28, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

sigh… i did it. i actually did it. i disclosed my infatuation with my therapist to my therapist. she seemed unaffected by it. unfazed. what i felt as profound embarrassment, she saw as “transference” which she said was very normal. … Continue reading →

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uh-oh

Posted on February 27, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

something really awful has happened. i can’t even admit it to myself. so i will admit it to you instead. i seem to have developed an infatuation with my new(est) therapist. the one i thought was perfect for a creature … Continue reading →

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people people person

Posted on February 22, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

i had yet another job phone interview today. it’s like a habit i can’t seem to break. i guess word hasn’t gotten around with every employer just how awful an interviewee i can be. i guess maybe that’s one of … Continue reading →

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lotto

Posted on February 19, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

this afternoon, a bicycle messenger arrived at my “office” to deliver a letter from an unnamed source that could either spell catastrophe or liberation. or perhaps it spells both. i read it over and over and over again, but before … Continue reading →

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calling attention to emptiness

Posted on February 17, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

i am noticing a disturbing trend. i notice that when i do not write anything new on my blog, i have no readership. this is really distressing because of days like yesterday when i literally had nothing new to say. … Continue reading →

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leaving

Posted on February 16, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

i’m starting to feel it again. winter is leaving. winter is leaving me again. o winter, how i pine for you to stay. if only you knew. is there anything i can do to convince to change your mind? it’s … Continue reading →

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who knows?

Posted on February 12, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

who knows what to think of anything? that is my question for the day. i will await your answer. until then… fondly yours, TLP

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out of nowhere

Posted on February 10, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

this playwright friend texted me that she really wanted me to see her new play which ran this weekend, adding that she was almost embarrassed to admit just how much she wanted me to see it. i wasn’t expecting that. … Continue reading →

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the worst

Posted on February 8, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

i’m wondering if i can get your permission to make more mistakes without judging them to be mistakes. or would i need your permission? i’m assuming it will ok. but so very often, my assumptions are wrong. i’m not really … Continue reading →

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Mit wechselnden Händen

Posted on February 7, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

I’ve started reading Doctor Faustus by Thomas Mann because my favorite music critic seems to write about it frequently, which piqued my curiosity. The first 27 pages have not quite grabbed me…  which may partially be because I tend to only read … Continue reading →

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practice

Posted on February 5, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

i feel sort of bad that i have not been writing that much of late. but then i remind myself that writing does not have to use language. i have no idea what i just meant. what i think i … Continue reading →

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February 1

Posted on February 2, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

another indescribably beautiful day of snow. i savored every fleeting second. walking in it. driving through it. letting it fall upon me.  talking for 2 hours with anthropology graduate student who was interviewing me, asking me to describe my experience … Continue reading →

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