Monthly Archives: July 2013

tunnelvisionary

Posted on July 31, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i think i’m worried. and if i’m not worried, i should be worried. i worry that i am devolving into a mean-spirited person. once in a while i notice that i am walking around in a tunnel. if not a … Continue reading →

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out and about

Posted on July 29, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

maybe my big problem isn’t that i’m running out of things to write about. i’m just running out of places where i can write. even places where i can write that i am running out of things to write about. … Continue reading →

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bombardment

Posted on July 28, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

my mission tonight is to write something deeply personal that has absolutely nothing to do with me. there is no room for me in tonight’s post. this blog is becoming dangerous because even if i write something that has absolutely … Continue reading →

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an omen

Posted on July 27, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i don’t know if it’s just me, but maybe you’ve noticed this, too, that the dogs inhabiting this planet are looking more amazing that at any time i can remember. everywhere i look, there’s one wondrous canine after another. i … Continue reading →

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the end of therapy

Posted on July 26, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i’ve been living in an isolation booth these past few weeks. and you know what? i kind of don’t find it to be very pleasant. Even though I can’t seem to separate myself from solitude, you know if I had … Continue reading →

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ne’er-do-well

Posted on July 24, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

I was doing nothing well today. I mean I actually did a lot of things today, but none of them were done very well by me. If that makes any sense. When given my first significant deadline at my job … Continue reading →

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lightning over water

Posted on July 23, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

we went swimming in the lake as the storm was gathering and the wind began to howl, extinguishing our fledgling little bonfire… and the lake began to part. To the west, you could see lightning all around you and the … Continue reading →

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trancetive

Posted on July 19, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

my latest trance is now going on hour no. 64. i can’t seem to step out of it, walk away from it. i’m in it. very deeply in it. i can’t say it’s meditative, contemplative, tranquil or effervescent. i can’t … Continue reading →

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the disqualifyer

Posted on July 17, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

most of the day was spent walking upstairs and then downstairs and then back upstairs and downstairs again, still trying to determine what my priorities are. but that’s not really what i had on my mind. what i had on … Continue reading →

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priorities

Posted on July 16, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

somewhere midway through my life’s journey, i lost my ability to prioritize. between apartment hunting, job hunting, art projects started and forsaken, relationships renewed or abandoned, attachments, detachments, the need for solitude, the need to be tribal, the need to … Continue reading →

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at the beach

Posted on July 14, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

which leads me to acknowledge that i am lost when i do not wander. there are days when i think i do not wander nearly enough. and then there are days where i feel as if i am condemned to … Continue reading →

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the ghost at the spectacle

Posted on July 13, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

a ghostly experience tonight at a soccer stadium in a southwest quadrant of the city, this marathon music fest with 4 bands, the last which was Bob Dylan and his band. the audience seemed to be there more for the … Continue reading →

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what is the meaning of like?

Posted on July 10, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i don’t know what is happening with human communication, but it feels like it’s becoming more vacuous. Or maybe it’s just me. But I must be responding to something out there. For example, a facebook friend has liked one of … Continue reading →

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meeting expectations

Posted on July 10, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

at work today, they surprised me with my first (and hopefully final) 6-month performance review. I mostly “met expectations,” but i “need improvement” in my communication skills. By October 2013, my bosses expect me to have completed some sort of … Continue reading →

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the right lane

Posted on July 8, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

7 hours on the road today. 370 miles. traffic is like some sort of balancing act between harmony and dissonance. i usually see myself as the type of person who naturally veers to the right lane to dodge the drivers … Continue reading →

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