Monthly Archives: October 2014

likable enough

what makes a person likable? or likable enough? maybe this all has to do with election season and politicians. i keep zeroing in on 1 particular moment during the democratic primaries in 2008(?), I think… when Obama was debating Hillary … Continue reading

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noncirrhosis

the hepatologist  called me to give me the really great news about my biopsy–that I do not have cirrhosis of the liver. the biopsy was completely normal. i was shocked. she went on to explain that the scarring and nodules on my … Continue reading

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waiting. still waiting. actually not very still waiting. i wish i knew what will happen next. everything is so unsettled and up in the air. i am so used to uncertainty, although i’ve never gotten comfortable with it, but this time around, i’ve … Continue reading

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Vocal rest (1)

A few years ago, following a vocal cord surgery, I was not allowed to speak for 2 weeks. Fortunately my friend C was kind enough to meet me at café, and patient enough to collaborate with me in typing out our conversation … Continue reading

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the wrong person

and then I received another message from that dating site I am on, but only as a very passive subscriber waiting for someone with whom I might have an affinity to miraculously emerge and discover me, which i guess is … Continue reading

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courtesy call

for over 16 weeks now, someone has been calling me at least twice a day, leaving messages that first disturbed me, frightened me because the only sound i could make out was heavy breathing. but today i noticed other ambient … Continue reading

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Today was The Feast of Remembrance. and tomorrow is The Feast of Forgetfulness. this year I am celebrating them both. thus i have spoken. thus i make it so. This the time when my petty grievances will turn to dust. they say … Continue reading

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this box

i’ve looked at my writing over the month or so of posts, and this has all been forced writing, squeezed out of a block of cement.   because i hear that not writing can be unhealthy. but i look at … Continue reading

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elusive

someone just sent me a text message: stay in the present to which i replied why must the present always be so elusive? and then she texted back: do you ever wonder if is you who are eluding the present? even when … Continue reading

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diversionary tactics

I’m trying to think of things to do while i’m waiting to hear from you: fast swim set sail go forth unwind take stock return stock try not forecast try not to read too much into anything get through a … Continue reading

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this other person

if i ruled the world, stress would be eradicated. Stress causers would be evaporated. the stress has been mounting all week. i can’t pretend it isn’t there. because it’s there. people at my job have been so mean to each … Continue reading

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