Monthly Archives: October 2014

likable enough

Posted on October 22, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

what makes a person likable? or likable enough? maybe this all has to do with election season and politicians. i keep zeroing in on 1 particular moment during the democratic primaries in 2008(?), I think… when Obama was debating Hillary … Continue reading →

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noncirrhosis

Posted on October 19, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

the hepatologist  called me to give me the really great news about my biopsy–that I do not have cirrhosis of the liver. the biopsy was completely normal. i was shocked. she went on to explain that the scarring and nodules on my … Continue reading →

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Posted on October 15, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

waiting. still waiting. actually not very still waiting. i wish i knew what will happen next. everything is so unsettled and up in the air. i am so used to uncertainty, although i’ve never gotten comfortable with it, but this time around, i’ve … Continue reading →

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Vocal rest (1)

Posted on October 12, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

A few years ago, following a vocal cord surgery, I was not allowed to speak for 2 weeks. Fortunately my friend C was kind enough to meet me at café, and patient enough to collaborate with me in typing out our conversation … Continue reading →

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the wrong person

Posted on October 10, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

and then I received another message from that dating site I am on, but only as a very passive subscriber waiting for someone with whom I might have an affinity to miraculously emerge and discover me, which i guess is … Continue reading →

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courtesy call

Posted on October 10, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

for over 16 weeks now, someone has been calling me at least twice a day, leaving messages that first disturbed me, frightened me because the only sound i could make out was heavy breathing. but today i noticed other ambient … Continue reading →

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Posted on October 10, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

Today was The Feast of Remembrance. and tomorrow is The Feast of Forgetfulness. this year I am celebrating them both. thus i have spoken. thus i make it so. This the time when my petty grievances will turn to dust. they say … Continue reading →

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this box

Posted on October 9, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

i’ve looked at my writing over the month or so of posts, and this has all been forced writing, squeezed out of a block of cement.   because i hear that not writing can be unhealthy. but i look at … Continue reading →

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elusive

Posted on October 7, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

someone just sent me a text message: stay in the present to which i replied why must the present always be so elusive? and then she texted back: do you ever wonder if is you who are eluding the present? even when … Continue reading →

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diversionary tactics

Posted on October 7, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

I’m trying to think of things to do while i’m waiting to hear from you: fast swim set sail go forth unwind take stock return stock try not forecast try not to read too much into anything get through a … Continue reading →

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this other person

Posted on October 2, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

if i ruled the world, stress would be eradicated. Stress causers would be evaporated. the stress has been mounting all week. i can’t pretend it isn’t there. because it’s there. people at my job have been so mean to each … Continue reading →

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