Monthly Archives: March 2013

mid-passage

last night i found myself wondering what you might be doing on a Saturday night. And with each moment of wondering, it hit me that i can’t wonder that way about you anymore because you are gone. really gone. and … Continue reading

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6:43 pm

for me to describe the quality of light at 6:43 tonight is impossible, but believe me, it was there. it was hard to miss it, even under the roof of a parking garage. it meant a lot to me that … Continue reading

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strategies for vanquishing numbness, part 1

entrench yourself in memories of friends lost or forgotten eat yogurt finish the final 90 pages of The Brothers Karamazov lose money from your pockets as you emerge from the subway and then gaze in wonder as a stranger hands … Continue reading

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2 hours

how fortunate. i awakened 2 hours too late…. and then was at least 2 hours late for everything else today. and now i’ve missed my deadline for writing a new post. and i feel awful about it. but i know … Continue reading

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Huge Studio in Hi Rise Gold Coast! On Site Dry Cleaner and Tailor $1341

rather beleaguered from viewing 40 or 50 apartments today of all shapes and sizes in various parts of the city. the combination of being open to all possibilities and indecisiveness can wear a person out. i can see myself living … Continue reading

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dragon sits at computer with very poor posture

i decided to stay in tonight in the hope that a rare night at home would inspire a creative spark or too. that was 3.5 hours ago, 3.4 of which were spent lurking on Facebook browsing other people’s FB presences. … Continue reading

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untitled

i can’t tell if it’s healthy or not that all of the clocks in my one-bedroom apartment are set to a different time zone. i know this makes it harder to be in the present. But the non-linearity of it … Continue reading

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Support staff

she scares me. i’m utterly petrified by this woman at work who i am supposed to be supervising. which means i am her supervisor and i am completely terrified of her. ┬áit’s not funny at all. i may have written … Continue reading

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my prediction

i’m frozen. now that i’ve taken the perilous risk in telling 10 or 12 friends about my blog, i’ve run out of things to write about. i think i’ve covered just about everything i can think of, within my very … Continue reading

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Titanium and MSG

another migraine-ish night, the 2nd one this week. i think these are more like titanium headaches than classic migraines. this may not make sense to those people out there whose cervical vertebrae are not fused together by titanium. i hope … Continue reading

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shrimp role

i spent most of today trying to figure out where to put things, only to realize i had no idea where anything went. a mountain of paperwork. i tried to arrange it into little categorical piles, but soon there were … Continue reading

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on (un)boldness

it’s clearly time to make a bold move, but there are so many of them to make–and how does one choose one from the other? not choosing is the unboldest move one can make. there’s nothing more unbold than that … Continue reading

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This magic moment

I pretended to be a nice person today and almost convinced myself. Now if I could only find a way to make that real, who knows what that might lead to? Maybe somewhere beyond this Starbucks where I sit clumsily … Continue reading

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thank you

i’d like to take this opportunity to personally thank the woman and her child who smiled at me at the airport, when there were so many who, for whatever reasons, could not. I’d like to honor their contributions to my … Continue reading

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a peculiar habit

i am prone to flights of delirium that quickly collapse into waves of panic. it’s a nasty habit i must learn how to break. for well over a week, my job has utterly oppressed and depleted me. in a moment … Continue reading

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