Author Archives: The Lost Pedestrian

About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.

Exodus (draft)

Time was running out of us. Or as one of us said, there was no time to lose. We were trying to beat the traffic. We could feel it coming for us. The traffic. I said what’s the hurry? And … Continue reading

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Respect

You never write to me anymore. I write to you all of the time. But I forget to type it out. And then I forget to send you what I forget to type. That sounds complicated. It is SO complicated. … Continue reading

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haiku

if only I could feel something, I might know I am not dead inside

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LCSWs

Have you ever fallen in love with a licensed social worker who you then tried to impress and eventually win over by helping her diagnose and then treat her most difficult clients? If so, how did that work for you? … Continue reading

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Things I have forgotten

Things I have forgotten .. How to write When to write Who to write to Where I fit in, in the larger scheme of things What the larger scheme of things appears to be How to jump into things without … Continue reading

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Sneezing

I ‘braved’ going out in the midst of a pandemic surge to see an allergist to see why I am having all of these sneezing seizures of late. Like sneezing 6 or 7 times in a row. Not that I … Continue reading

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OMG

OMG. I can’t believe I haven’t written anything in over a month. And so much has happened in the world, so much as happened in me, I would not know where to begin. How strange it is to be back … Continue reading

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Senator

In last night’s dream, I had just been elected as Senator of Massachusetts. I have no idea how that happened. I wasn’t even on the ballot. At first I thought there was no way I wanted the job. But then … Continue reading

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How can I return to the scene of a crime I could never commit?

In last night’s dream, I killed someone and hid the body in somebody’s bedroom, in between the bed and the nightstand. I can’t recall the act of murder, how I did it, or the identity of the (male) victim. Or … Continue reading

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Significant

I feel like I’m on the verge of something and it might be significant. Or it might not. But it feels like something’s coming. It might be my vision from my left eye, slowly returning. Or an impending move. Or … Continue reading

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Interocular

Today was a retina surgery kind of day. An interocular lens replacement kind of day. It was quite an ordeal. The anesthesiologist somehow managed not to anesthetize me and I was awake for the entire procedure which was supposed to … Continue reading

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Usefulness

I may have accidentally outlived my body’s usefulness. And now I’m not quite what to do next, other than to pretend that it never happened.

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Barbecue

If I had a way to count the number of barbecues I have missed this summer, I am not sure if I would use it. They would be innumerable. Insurmountable. And I am not sure why I would even attempt … Continue reading

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Rhode Island

I’m exhausted. Exhausted by all of the nothing that is happening. So much nothing. It’s endless. This nothingness. I am at a loss for words to describe all of this negative space I occupy. The only thing that feels different … Continue reading

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Sunset

I’ve been coasting all day. Avoiding anything remotely uncomfortable or decisive. But I guess avoidance leads to numbness which leads discomfort about numbness and uncertainty about how it will end, except in a sentence such as this one. I have … Continue reading

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