Tag Archives: friends

Back in the Bardo, again

Posted on March 2, 2017 by The Lost Pedestrian

It’s official. I’ve returned to the Bardo after an extended absence. Actually I’ve been here for at least a month but it’s taken me at least a month to realize it. But here I am. My imaginary home is a … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged accident, attention, bardo, family, friends, home, imaginary, intention, Jello, light years | Leave a comment

983 days

Posted on April 24, 2016 by The Lost Pedestrian

I went to a concert in this cafe in Cambridge last night, contemporary music for flute and piano. It was great. Very informal. 9 people in the audience. They served beer. Even though I do not drink beer, I appreciated the … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged beer, birthday parties, Boston, Cambridge, composer, friends, kombucha, unfriendliness | Leave a comment

sweater gazing

Posted on January 13, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

i’ve begun to notice that most of my sweaters are old and threadbare and have littles holes here and there. i am comfortable in them, but when i imagine how they might look to somebody who is not me, it … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged baroque, black, departments stores, friends, gray, hoodie, illness, logos, love, malls, mothers, olive green, stripes, sweaters | Leave a comment

the unforgiven

Posted on November 21, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i know this (among many other things) might sound really insecure, but whenever I send out a message–voice or email–to a friend who does not respond, i somehow convince myself that i have said or done something terribly, heinously and … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged apology, arrogance, communication, confidence, email, forgiveness, friends, narcissism, neurosis, voice mail | Leave a comment

on the terrace

Posted on September 9, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

at my friend c’s party tonight. i was secretly hoping that i would not be able to find anywhere to park and that this would be my excuse for missing it. but that was not to be. i never ever … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged awestruck, conversation, friends, lake, parking, terrace, waves, Wind | Leave a comment

fewer friends

Posted on August 17, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

the subway was packed to the gills, more packed than the usual rush hour kind of packed. i barely had room to find a handle and when i did, it was only by the tips of my fingers. as the … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged blocking, exits, fingers, friends, gills, handles, path, people, person, rush hour, trains | Leave a comment

the blemish

Posted on June 1, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

another predicament. i really truly want to get my writing out there in the world, but i fear if i lose my anonymity, i may lose my job, lose my friends, hurt certain members of my family. this blog could … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged anonymity, authorship, blemish, blockage, connection, credit rating, damage, deliverance, family, friends, job, liberation, therapy | Leave a comment

where i am

Posted on January 19, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

when i look back upon my blog posts, it pains me to notice how repetitive i can be… writing the same things over and over again using different words in different combinations … but always always the same things. such … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged blame, change, courage, decisions, familiar, family, friends, inner strength, live, repetition, resolve, work | Leave a comment

anticipatory anxiety

i can’t figure out why i feel so annoyed today. is it too simplistic to place the blame on Starbucks who now wants to charge me 20 cents extra for decaff when it is i who should be charging them … Continue reading →

Aside | Posted on January 6, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian | Tagged annoyance, anticipatory anxiety, control, days, decaff, friends, isolation, nights, plans, Starbucks, time | Leave a comment

strange and alarming

Posted on January 4, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

forgive me, for i have misspoke. again and again i have misspoken. my lack of eloquence since the holidays began and into these first days of 2013 has been strange and alarming. it’s not exactly a matter of saying things … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged 2013, editor, friends, imaginary, misspoken, words | Leave a comment

the problem with me being me is me

Posted on December 23, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

i feel awkward writing about the same things over and over again. it’s just that when i think of something different, I forget to write it down. or else i dream it and forget to write it down. so i … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged decisions, dreams, friends, hermetic, invitations, memory, obligation, repetition, terror, tradition, XMAS | Leave a comment

the 147 bus

Posted on November 10, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

but first, i must apologize for venting bitterness in my previous post. as far as i can see, it did not serve either of us very well, and for that, I can only call upon your forgiveness. and second, i … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged 147, apology, bus, darkness, friends, lightning, peaks, psyche, seven, sigh, valleys, waiting | Leave a comment

the wisp

Posted on November 1, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

my car nearly exploded as i ascended the parking garage, all the way up to the 13th floor, on my way to another job interview. i arrived just in the nick of time. but i came out of it as … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged car, cocoon, explosion, friends, Hurricane Sandy, prayer, transfiguration, unexpected, waiting, wisp | Leave a comment

Combatants

Posted on October 10, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

It’s too noisy in here. in this room. in this head. constant din and clatter. seriously agitated all day, ever since last night when a friend gave me some advice that is the complete opposite of my instincts, that is … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged advice, agitation, combantants, enemies, friends, noise, vacillation | Leave a comment