Tag Archives: loss

something beyond

I am trying to think of something that literally did not happen today. Or it happened, but not literally. And I’m coming up empty. It’s been an empty day. It’s been an empty year, an empty past 4 years. I … Continue reading

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volunteering

i still have yet to figure out what i’m doing here. everything feels unnatural, inorganic, out-of-sync, out-of-tune. difficult. i seem to seek out difficult situations and difficult people. i came here voluntarily. and i knew this is how it would … Continue reading

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my oasis

i have to apologize. i look back at the writing i’ve done over the past week or so, and i think, gosh, that sounds so negative. i don’t mean to sound like such a downer. i don’t feel like a … Continue reading

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strategies for vanquishing numbness, part 1

entrench yourself in memories of friends lost or forgotten eat yogurt finish the final 90 pages of The Brothers Karamazov lose money from your pockets as you emerge from the subway and then gaze in wonder as a stranger hands … Continue reading

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fibers

i try my hardest, with every fiber of my body and soul to not talk about this, but it’s eating away inside me. i don’t even know where or how to begin to describe my loathing of my job. so … Continue reading

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