rather beleaguered from viewing 40 or 50 apartments today of all shapes and sizes in various parts of the city. the combination of being open to all possibilities and indecisiveness can wear a person out. i can see myself living anywhere and i can see myself not living just anywhere. landlord and leasing agents ask me for immediate decisions and all i can do is tell them, i’m not ready.

And then they warn me that there are people waiting in line for these apartments and if I don’t act now they will be gone forever because there are more apartment seekers than there are apartments.

And I tell them, well if that’s the case, maybe all of us apartment seekers should live together in the last remaining apartment in the city. And they say, well we should warn you that it’s a small studio. And I ask, compared to what?

And they ask, so out of the 40 or 50 places you’ve looked at, what are your top choices? And I say, I don’t know. Where do you see me living? And they say, we don’t really know you that well. And I say, well, from what you do know of me so far, where do you think i’d feel happiest?

And they say, gosh, it’s really up to you. And I say, it feels like every place has it own set of possibilities. I don’t even know if I want to live in this city or this part of the country. And they say, gosh, that is a real conundrum.  we think you can live just about anywhere and you never know what your life will be like until you live there. would you like to fill out an application?