Tag Archives: sleep

Rochester

sleep has been a real issue for me of late (meaning 20 years). i’ve been trying different strategies and mechanisms and formulas in pursuit of sleep, but it remains an enigma. i’m not quite sure how people do it. last … Continue reading

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because the wash

I was just about to go to sleep, just beginning to descend into the mattress when i came across this cryptic message written on a post-it note, slightly attached to my pillow. i really have no clue as to its … Continue reading

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Bob

i can’t believe how quiet it is tonight. it’s almost startlingly quiet. except for the persistent ringing in my ears that began at a Wilco concert in Seattle in 1997 and never quite went away. someone at a meditation retreat … Continue reading

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unphased

somebody removed a small section of my head today, i guess for my health, but i don’t think it had any medicinal purposes that i was aware of. i actually did not at all mind, this biopsy. the doctor was … Continue reading

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unsettling

i wonder if i have either stifled my dreams, hopes and aspirations or if i am just sleep-deprived and lethargic. or if stifling dreams, hopes and aspirations leads to sleep deprivation? it did not seem all that long ago when … Continue reading

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boxing

i’ve been dragging most of the day. i’m not sure why it was so hard to fall asleep last night. to stay asleep. and i really really need to sleep more than anything else after being sick all week. but … Continue reading

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strategies for vanquishing numbness, part 1

entrench yourself in memories of friends lost or forgotten eat yogurt finish the final 90 pages of The Brothers Karamazov lose money from your pockets as you emerge from the subway and then gaze in wonder as a stranger hands … Continue reading

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my name

a peculiar moment. at work. somebody asked me my name. it was so shocking to be asked that I found myself at a complete loss for words, and I did not know quite how to answer. i said, do you … Continue reading

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the courage to sleep

and then it occurred to me that sleep can be redefined. there are ways to make sleep into something voluminous and profound and constructive, something consequential and transforming. it doesn’t have to be downtime. it can be 8 hours of … Continue reading

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lather

some people celebrate surviving their first week at a new job, binging on various forms of stimulants. my version was to binge on yogurt, 2 different kinds of yogurt within 20 minutes. i am all lathered up on yogurt (and … Continue reading

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the inert

today, an epic struggle against the forces of inertia. there are days when I awaken with this indeterminate weight of uncertainty. I eat my oatmeal with protein powder and my banana and swallow my supplements… and then … and then … Continue reading

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over-over-tired

have you ever had one of those days where you are sooooooo incredibly tired that you are too tired to sleep? you kind of drag yourself off the couch where you’ve been nodding off… into bedroom and when you lie … Continue reading

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guardian angel

he makes regular featured or cameo appearances in my dreams… my much beloved and greatly missed English Mastiff… always protective and comforting…. sometimes struggling as he did in those final weeks. I am not the best at remembering my dreams. … Continue reading

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