the blemish

another predicament. i really truly want to get my writing out there in the world, but i fear if i lose my anonymity, i may lose my job, lose my friends, hurt certain members of my family. this blog could spell the end of me. but perhaps that is what i need to get my work out there. not that i want things to end. but somehow there must be a way to break through this anonymity and claim authorship. because it feels like it’s holding me back.

even though it would not bother me if it impacted my job. except that my job provides health insurance that pays for the therapist i see twice per week to complain about my job. but that’s all i want to say about that.

i feel like there is some hidden blockage that doesn’t allow me to fully connect. there’s something lacking and i think its causing more damage than the anonymity or non-anonymity of my blog could ever cause. it’s like there’s a blemish but i can’t figure out where it is. maybe it’s in my credit rating. maybe i should run a credit report on myself. maybe that will reveal the secret of everything…  and then l will be delivered.

About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.
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