anticipatory anxiety

i can’t figure out why i feel so annoyed today. is it too simplistic to place the blame on Starbucks who now wants to charge me 20 cents extra for decaff when it is i who should be charging them for inflicting my ears with their annoying music?? or maybe that’s not really fair of me. some of you might be thinking, “hey, Lost Pedestrian! why do you always pick on starbucks? if they are so annoying to you, why don’t you just go elsewhere?” to which i might say, “dear reader, i think you raise a valid point.”

or maybe it’s due to my anticipatory anxiety over my new job that starts monday. i really have no idea what i’m getting into, but it’s scary. maybe it’s due to trying not to be scared.

or it might be due to the fact that it’s getting darker later in the day, and i was so happy when night fell at 4:00. i was hoping that would last a bit longer. the days are growing longer. the nights becoming shorter. and time is spiraling out of control. and i find that to be annoying.

or maybe it’s trying to base my plans upon friends who do not really know how to make plans. but the only way to avoid that is complete isolation.  and when i isolate myself, i become the annoying and the annoyed.

or maybe it’s because i can’t quite get over my annoyance with starbucks.

About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.
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