Yom Kippur eve

So far, i have atoned very minimally, if at all. i woke up with a yearning to atone, but really, what constitutes atonement? forgiveness for my moments of selfishness that were really not about acquiring things, but more selfish, perhaps, in the sense of these pervasive struggles with self-doubt and self-reproach, those moments of congestion where I am not even aware of just how closed off I can be to the world and people and situations that are right there in front of me? And where I may be needed the most.

I miss out on a lot. And maybe if I made more regular appearances in the present, I would miss out on less, and then just imagine the possibilities if self-doubt could transform into greater compassion and courage. just imagine the possibilities. i really do think I can make this happen if I work on them more than once in a while. I think I can do that . just try harder.

About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.
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