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Returned (Allen, pt. 1)

Posted on October 8, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

The other night at a bar, a friend asked me if I have spoken with Allen lately, it kind of took me off-guard. How could she know I was holding regular conversations with him, silent conversations while awake, verbal ones … Continue reading →

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brown noise karaoke night

Posted on October 6, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

what’s the word for that feeling you sometimes get…. as if you are a guest in someone else’s home who has overstayed her/his welcome? you know you’re not supposed to be there. you’re supposed to be elsewhere, but you need … Continue reading →

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the decider

Posted on October 5, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

Lately I am focusing a lot of energy on making decisions without actually having to make decisions. It’s not as if I want others to make decisions for me. But if I can somehow sway them to make the decisions … Continue reading →

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The Eiffel Tower

Posted on October 3, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

I’m not sure how to engage in conversation with one of my co-workers. I must first say that not once in my 3 years of working there has anyone asked me anything about myself or anything about my non-work life … Continue reading →

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my winter heart

Posted on October 2, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

i can almost feel it. my winter heart slowly awakening. October is my Spring. i’ve never been able to figure out why i am this way. the only person I know that seems to really “get it” is my chiropractor/acupuncturist, … Continue reading →

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Captain Kangaroo

Posted on October 1, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

it’s that time of day where i search and search for something to say. and if i could say anything, would it be worth writing about? i could write about the barista at the Starbucks on the way to work. … Continue reading →

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avoid, resist, embrace

Posted on September 29, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

it turns out that avoiding and resisting may sometimes be advantageous in the sense of giving me more time to gather information about what i may be avoiding… after all, i’m an information gatherer… whether my avoidance is really attuned … Continue reading →

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Turbulent on the inside. …

Posted on September 28, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

Turbulent on the inside. Frosty on the outside.

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avoid, resist

Posted on September 28, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

so many things to avoid doing today. i didn’t have time to count or attend to them all. so many phone calls i didn’t return. so many decisions to avoid, resist.  i’m not sure what to do with them all. … Continue reading →

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disjunction

Posted on September 27, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

even a Lost Pedestrian has some sense of direction everyone once in a while. but sensing it and actually getting there… sometimes there’s a bewildering disjunction. It’s amazing how far I can lean forward in one direction, only it turns … Continue reading →

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Yom Kippur eve

Posted on September 26, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

So far, i have atoned very minimally, if at all. i woke up with a yearning to atone, but really, what constitutes atonement? forgiveness for my moments of selfishness that were really not about acquiring things, but more selfish, perhaps, … Continue reading →

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i saw a half-moon rising tonight …

Posted on September 25, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

and felt immediately responsible for the other half. its safety and whereabouts and i will take this with me when i enter sleep in a few minutes after a day on which i could never get a proper handle, on … Continue reading →

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i can’t stop eating fruit

Posted on September 24, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

but what I really want is a bag of potato chips. i’ve spent most of the day eating other things precisely to avoid eating potato chips. as I type these words, I am eating my 4th apple of the day. … Continue reading →

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confidence, day 2

Posted on September 23, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

day 2 of my feigning confidence experiment. it’s off to a rough start so far. we all were sitting across from each other in this conference room. at the conference table. i guess it was my turn to speak, but … Continue reading →

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this thing between us

Posted on September 23, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

dear imaginary reader, i’m not quite sure how to express this, but lately I’ve been feeling this growing sense of schism between us. like lately it just feels like everything’s out of sync. i’m not saying that this is either … Continue reading →

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