Author Archives: The Lost Pedestrian

About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.

un-asked question

Posted on April 14, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

how come some people get to be Ornette Coleman while others do not? those of us who are not Ornette Coleman can only gaze in wonder. in all of my years of not being Ornette Coleman, i’ve never thought to … Continue reading →

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on a bender

Posted on April 13, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

another titanium neck migraine day which i tried to wash down in a bender of Dunkin Donuts coffee followed by 2 glasses of pear sake at my new favorite sushi joint. this came shortly after I tore my Patagonia down … Continue reading →

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de-lusioned

Posted on April 12, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

there was a time when i just assumed i lived a charmed life. not charmed in the sense of always feeling magical and carefree. but more charmed in the sense that no matter how difficult things were on the outside, … Continue reading →

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de-planed

Posted on April 11, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i hope you don’t mind… well… um… i’m kind of wondering if you could do me a favor. And feel free to say “no.” It’s OK. I know you have a lot on your plate right now. i’m sure i … Continue reading →

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Boston to Beijing, sans Beijing

Posted on April 9, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

tonight i found myself on a flight from Boston to Beijing, with a stop in Chicago. I am not sure why I got off the plane in Chicago. Was it fear? Was it laziness about coming up with another excuse … Continue reading →

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not me

Posted on April 6, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i like to think of myself as the kind of person who is not hostile, inhospitable, contemptuous, malicious, vindictive, pugnacious, rascalian, mean-spirited, morose, embittered, rageful, impetuous, virulent, vile, vengeful, willful, grasping, meglomaniacal, venomous, deceitful, traitorous, treacherous, depraved, villainous, corruptive, morally … Continue reading →

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things to develop

Posted on April 5, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

a difficult day at work again. I am too weary to write about it. I must develop a more care-free attitude, a nonchalance, a thicker skin. but i am too weary to develop that tonight.

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appreciative

Posted on April 4, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

talking to my new therapist gives me a greater sense of appreciation for all of those moments in my life when i am not talking to my new therapist.

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Song of Metacognition

Posted on April 3, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

my computer is acting up again. it’s claiming that the music coming out of it is Stravinky’s Le Sacre du printemps, when everybody here knows it’s actually Willow Weep for Me by Ann Renell. Or is it? speaking of which, i was … Continue reading →

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mid-passage

Posted on March 31, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

last night i found myself wondering what you might be doing on a Saturday night. And with each moment of wondering, it hit me that i can’t wonder that way about you anymore because you are gone. really gone. and … Continue reading →

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6:43 pm

Posted on March 30, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

for me to describe the quality of light at 6:43 tonight is impossible, but believe me, it was there. it was hard to miss it, even under the roof of a parking garage. it meant a lot to me that … Continue reading →

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strategies for vanquishing numbness, part 1

Posted on March 26, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

entrench yourself in memories of friends lost or forgotten eat yogurt finish the final 90 pages of The Brothers Karamazov lose money from your pockets as you emerge from the subway and then gaze in wonder as a stranger hands … Continue reading →

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2 hours

Posted on March 25, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

how fortunate. i awakened 2 hours too late…. and then was at least 2 hours late for everything else today. and now i’ve missed my deadline for writing a new post. and i feel awful about it. but i know … Continue reading →

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Huge Studio in Hi Rise Gold Coast! On Site Dry Cleaner and Tailor $1341

Posted on March 24, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

rather beleaguered from viewing 40 or 50 apartments today of all shapes and sizes in various parts of the city. the combination of being open to all possibilities and indecisiveness can wear a person out. i can see myself living … Continue reading →

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dragon sits at computer with very poor posture

Posted on March 23, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i decided to stay in tonight in the hope that a rare night at home would inspire a creative spark or too. that was 3.5 hours ago, 3.4 of which were spent lurking on Facebook browsing other people’s FB presences. … Continue reading →

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