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Tag Archives: work
spillage
everyday i come here, to this blog, it is my solemn intent to never talk about my job, but i have no choice other than to be honest with you, and admit that this job is really getting to me … Continue reading
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Tagged alienation, detachment, extinction, job, melody, music, rhythm, shrink, song, Stockhausen, vanish, work
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things to develop
a difficult day at work again. I am too weary to write about it. I must develop a more care-free attitude, a nonchalance, a thicker skin. but i am too weary to develop that tonight.
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Tagged attitude adjustment, contempt, rage, skin, wearies, work, writing
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in the thick of it
just when i think it couldn’t go any higher, i am reaching new highs of alienation at work. there’s so much aggressive male energy, so much of it, it’s this foreign land i do not know how to navigate. it’s … Continue reading
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Tagged alienation, hockey, males, masculinity, monotony, relief, sigh, work
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unimpeded
why is there always this tiny part of you that is intent on sabotaging everything, now that you finally have things going for you, such as a job? why does every corpuscle in your infrastructure cry out for you to … Continue reading
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Tagged Grateful Dead, health insurance benefits, job, sabotage, stoner, weed, work
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the lion’s share
as i feared, this is indeed turning out to be the week where i am being exposed as a fraud. at work, they are asking me to do more and more things that require knowledge and expertise in matters of … Continue reading
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Tagged apology, confidence, exposed, fraud, impressions, learning, smart, understanding, work
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detached
these disorienting days trying to orient myself to my new full-time work schedule with this new job. the rush to the trains. the rush back from lunch. the rush to the trains. the gym. the shower. the bed. in between … Continue reading
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Tagged change, detachment, emptiness, full-time job, panic, routine, shock, work
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where i am
when i look back upon my blog posts, it pains me to notice how repetitive i can be… writing the same things over and over again using different words in different combinations … but always always the same things. such … Continue reading
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Tagged blame, change, courage, decisions, familiar, family, friends, inner strength, live, repetition, resolve, work
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the back row
you may have seen me sitting in the back row at the james bond movie tonight. that was me. i kept wandering out of the theater, behind the screen, out into the lobby, beneath the projection booth, past the concession … Continue reading
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Tagged avalanche, bowling, danger, email, James Bond, Martin Luther King Day, panic, shadows, theater, work
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pro forma
i apologize to everybody for being invisible these past few days. i have been overwhelmed and shocked and disoriented from my previous state of semi-slaggard-ness to a regular 8:30-5:00 full-time day gig. i can’t believe that I have to start … Continue reading
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Tagged 5th grade, attention, job, orientation, pro forma, training, window, work
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Lori or Laurie
I slept last night on a fold-out couch at my sister’s place, with a layer of memory foam. I’m in love with memory foam, sinking into it. it’s so lush and comforting. this woman appeared in my dream who I … Continue reading
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Tagged a, apocalypse, Laurie, Lori, memory foam, tumult, work
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The Fortress of Solitude
At work
what i did
all i did in the world today has been take take take. i can tell you that i am taking for my own survival. or maybe not taking, but sealing off from giving. because all i can think about is … Continue reading
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Tagged coconut water, comfort, confidence, courage, existence, food, give, ink, intent, nothing, paper, subsidize, take, time, wireless, work
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The Lost Pedestrian 