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About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.

February 1st quandary

Posted on February 2, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

all of these people who have so many things to say. how do i become one of them?

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audition #1

Posted on February 1, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

hours and hours i exerted all day in search of some form of inspiration, but instead was consumed in unsuccessfully deciphering copyright regulations and licensing agreements, far more than my feeble brain could grapple with. other than that, today was … Continue reading →

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the explanation

Posted on January 31, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i believe i have entered my third trimester of reading The Brothers Karamazov, reading only a few pages each day on the train to and from work. sometimes the bus. and i’m not at all self conscious about it. not … Continue reading →

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more on staying

Posted on January 30, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

it’s so strange telling my friends they did not know how close I came, within millimeters of leaving them for another city. But I don’t think they really even noticed. Maybe I was supposed to make this big blaring non-verbal … Continue reading →

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contained

Posted on January 28, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

there was a time when the road opened up to me, and i fell into it, inert. breaking the fall with my wrists, somewhat embarrassed. but had it been you instead of me, i would have told you that you … Continue reading →

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inauthentic

Posted on January 26, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

my lack of confidence that i once thought i hid so well is not quite as hidden as it used to be. it might just be me, but i think people are beginning to notice. or maybe it’s just being so vulnerable at … Continue reading →

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detached

Posted on January 24, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

these disorienting days trying to orient myself to my new full-time work schedule with this new job. the rush to the trains. the rush back from lunch. the rush to the trains. the gym. the shower. the bed. in between … Continue reading →

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the village jew

Posted on January 23, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i had no way of getting out of it. the mandatory employee bowling party at my new place of employment (probably topped the charts on my long list of alienating experiences. i did not bowl, but i learned the hard … Continue reading →

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the problem

Posted on January 20, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

the problem with many of the sentences i write is that they are made out of words, often misspelled, but more often mis-used. i am not writing them as much as i am typing them. my typing is improving as … Continue reading →

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where i am

Posted on January 19, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

when i look back upon my blog posts, it pains me to notice how repetitive i can be… writing the same things over and over again using different words in different combinations … but always always the same things. such … Continue reading →

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Toast

Posted on January 18, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

My voice feels like toast. And it sounds like gravel, but Who am I to judge ?

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the saboteur

Posted on January 17, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i always thought i was a pretty decent team player until i was asked to behave as a member of a team. last night a canadian friend told me that my rebellion against team-building exercises (such as the much dreaded … Continue reading →

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parenthesis

Posted on January 16, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i was hit by a broken tidal wave, but, most fortunately, i was wearing a device that kept me afloat. by the time i returned to shore, it felt like my world was enclosed in parenthesis. i guess i am … Continue reading →

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a ramshackle affair

Posted on January 15, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

some days i feel like a chesapeake bay retriever. other days i feel like a wounded officer from some ramshackle disbanded army. one is n0t necessarily better than the other. i think the important thing is just to act p0lite … Continue reading →

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the courage to sleep

Posted on January 14, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

and then it occurred to me that sleep can be redefined. there are ways to make sleep into something voluminous and profound and constructive, something consequential and transforming. it doesn’t have to be downtime. it can be 8 hours of … Continue reading →

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