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About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.

a hum

Posted on February 8, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

were it not for the constant slow hum drone of traffic, i would feel completely unearthed, disoriented. there’s a hum through my window, but it feels so so very far away. there are lights moving but i can’t tell if … Continue reading →

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too late

Posted on February 7, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i wish i had not waited until this very late hour, for me, (that was once an early hour back in the days of underemployment) … i wish had not waited until now to write anything. that stands amongst the … Continue reading →

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the lion’s share

Posted on February 6, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

as i feared, this is indeed turning out to be the week where i am being exposed as a fraud. at work, they are asking me to do more and more things that require knowledge and expertise in matters of … Continue reading →

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a wonder

Posted on February 5, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i smiled not once today, and i did not do it consciously. the entire day vanquished at the very moment when i thought i had lost my wallet, which is the worst possible calamity that could possibly happen to any … Continue reading →

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nerxious energy

Posted on February 4, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i’m nerxious about the work week ahead. i’m always this way on Sundays. this dread, this fear that this week, this very work week that begins tomorrow, this is the week where i’ll be exposed. somehow i’ve managed to get … Continue reading →

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Charade

Posted on February 3, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i feel terrible. all of my plans hinged on riding the elevator down from the 21st floor of my apartment building to my car in time to get to the theater before it was too late. but it came to … Continue reading →

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February 1st quandary

Posted on February 2, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

all of these people who have so many things to say. how do i become one of them?

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audition #1

Posted on February 1, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

hours and hours i exerted all day in search of some form of inspiration, but instead was consumed in unsuccessfully deciphering copyright regulations and licensing agreements, far more than my feeble brain could grapple with. other than that, today was … Continue reading →

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the explanation

Posted on January 31, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i believe i have entered my third trimester of reading The Brothers Karamazov, reading only a few pages each day on the train to and from work. sometimes the bus. and i’m not at all self conscious about it. not … Continue reading →

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more on staying

Posted on January 30, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

it’s so strange telling my friends they did not know how close I came, within millimeters of leaving them for another city. But I don’t think they really even noticed. Maybe I was supposed to make this big blaring non-verbal … Continue reading →

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contained

Posted on January 28, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

there was a time when the road opened up to me, and i fell into it, inert. breaking the fall with my wrists, somewhat embarrassed. but had it been you instead of me, i would have told you that you … Continue reading →

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inauthentic

Posted on January 26, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

my lack of confidence that i once thought i hid so well is not quite as hidden as it used to be. it might just be me, but i think people are beginning to notice. or maybe it’s just being so vulnerable at … Continue reading →

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detached

Posted on January 24, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

these disorienting days trying to orient myself to my new full-time work schedule with this new job. the rush to the trains. the rush back from lunch. the rush to the trains. the gym. the shower. the bed. in between … Continue reading →

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the village jew

Posted on January 23, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i had no way of getting out of it. the mandatory employee bowling party at my new place of employment (probably topped the charts on my long list of alienating experiences. i did not bowl, but i learned the hard … Continue reading →

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the problem

Posted on January 20, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

the problem with many of the sentences i write is that they are made out of words, often misspelled, but more often mis-used. i am not writing them as much as i am typing them. my typing is improving as … Continue reading →

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