Tag Archives: dread

the call

Posted on January 27, 2023 by The Lost Pedestrian

I’m nervous tonight. Anxious and nervous. Nerxious. There’s a possibility that this person might call me, or text me if I don’t answer, and even though I would be so much happier not responding, I am afraid I will be … Continue reading →

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A mole’s life

Posted on October 28, 2019 by The Lost Pedestrian

Trump is killing me. I am dying beneath the weight of him. Since November 8 2016, things are gradually leaving me. My creative spark: gone. Any other kind of spark: gone. Abstract thinking: gone. My ability to read anything other … Continue reading →

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sarcoidosis (spreading)

Posted on December 18, 2016 by The Lost Pedestrian

Tonight I attended a John Cage concert at some chapel at Harvard University. What started out as this beautiful, meditative tone poem for piano and violin, with increasingly sustained periods of silence between each note… well I was totally into it at … Continue reading →

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succumb

Posted on October 18, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i have this strange mix of dread and excitement about my job interview trip to the west coast that happens on Saturday. an excitement about the possibility of being out there in the clear open sky (in denial of my … Continue reading →

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fibers

Posted on August 15, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

i try my hardest, with every fiber of my body and soul to not talk about this, but it’s eating away inside me. i don’t even know where or how to begin to describe my loathing of my job. so … Continue reading →

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