I’m nervous tonight. Anxious and nervous. Nerxious. There’s a possibility that this person might call me, or text me if I don’t answer, and even though I would be so much happier not responding, I am afraid I will be obliged to respond. And then we will chat a bit. And there will be A LOT of awkward silences. And then they might say, ‘you seem like you’re in a strange mood.” And I will say, “I’m not sure I know what you mean.” And they will say, “I don’t know. You seem really distant.” And there will be another long pause, but more uncomfortable than the previous pauses. And I will make a joke about it being a 36 hour walk to their house. And that joke will fail spectacularly. And I will start to apologize, but then stop myself because one thing that really irritates them is when I apologize which they say I do way too much. And I don’t want to make things even more uncomfortable than they were 20 seconds earlier.