the last door on my possible exit from this city closed on me today, and i have to tell myself that this is just the way it is, for now. i might as well make the best of it, for now. my closest friends who were here are no longer here. i am a stranger in a strangely familiar place and i must figure out a way to re-purpose myself out of purposelessness.
at the gym today, 2 siliconed women were practicing salacious bikini poses wearing spiked high heel shoes while i worked on my tricep curls. i was told that they were in training for a figure competition.