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The air smells like barbecue dust

Posted on September 8, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian
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It doesn’t take much lack of imagination for me to be sitting outside at Starbucks somewhere in Lincoln Park. At this Starbucks, they’re serving wine and people are drinking. They’re playing “Rock and Roll High School” on the sound system, … Continue reading →

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cauliflowers for O

Posted on September 8, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

today was not a day but a blur. almost like a smudge mark on the windshield, but i could see around it here and there. people walked passed and through it. i waved back. And there were flickers of recognition. … Continue reading →

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exit poll

Posted on September 7, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

Redemption is real, but seems so far away. What can I do to get there? For decade upon decade upon decade, I have been figuring out ways to not blunder… completely delusional and profoundly limiting. Shaking things up, subverting automatic … Continue reading →

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confidence

Posted on September 5, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

today, i tried to exude a fake sense of confidence and almost got away with it. i don’t know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. not having actual confidence, or getting away with faking, or not … Continue reading →

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the inert

Posted on September 4, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

today, an epic struggle against the forces of inertia. there are days when I awaken with this indeterminate weight of uncertainty. I eat my oatmeal with protein powder and my banana and swallow my supplements… and then … and then … Continue reading →

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when in doubt …

Posted on September 3, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

… which I am at least 53% of the time, there’s always Mozart. … and my friend Enilc. Have you ever had the experience of a new person, sort of a spiritual twin, entering your life precisely at the right … Continue reading →

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I was in the best mood …

Posted on September 2, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

but then WordPress destroyed it. I had written one of the best blogs I’ve written to date, and somehow, while trying to publish it, WordPress sent it into oblivion, and I’ll never get it back. And now I’m upset and … Continue reading →

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Against rejection

Posted on August 31, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

My question today is what is the average rebound time needed to recover from rejection? 5 minutes? 5 days? 5 years? Why do all rejections feel somewhat like rejection? Why do they always carry the same weight? What constitutes them? … Continue reading →

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my 1000 miles of driving hit me like…  um… I was going to say “sledgehammer,” but it was more like a tsunami of fatigue and I had the good fortune of having a mattress nearby to collapse into late in … Continue reading →

Posted on August 30, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian | Leave a comment

the night so dark and blurry…

Posted on August 29, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

… I left town in a hurry. and I was far from home. for hours and hours I drove and drove, sometimes stopping, but then more and more hours of driving and driving. I drove and drove until I could … Continue reading →

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walls with paper

Posted on August 28, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

I am writing to you from the Doubletree Hotel in Rochester, Minnesota. I have been here for about 6 hours and I just noticed that the wallpaper is a rather tasteful white with greenish tint. What compelled me to be … Continue reading →

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Lori or Laurie

Posted on August 26, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

I slept last night on a fold-out couch at my sister’s place, with a layer of memory foam. I’m in love with memory foam, sinking into it. it’s so lush and comforting. this woman appeared in my dream who I … Continue reading →

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churn, churn, churn

Posted on August 26, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

drove across the Midwest plaines into other Midwest plaines. Goal: Des Moines Iowa The intention: to clean the attic. of my psyche. to be present in the music accompanying me. the music part seemed to be going quite well, but … Continue reading →

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raked by indecision

Posted on August 25, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

is the expression ‘raked by indecision’? no… that was just me imagining something I heard. what i meant to saw was wracked by indecision. the state i have been these past 24 hours. i easily could have made things happen, … Continue reading →

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