is the expression ‘raked by indecision’? no… that was just me imagining something I heard. what i meant to saw was wracked by indecision. the state i have been these past 24 hours.

i easily could have made things happen, but I made so many typing errors. I don’t really know why. the short version that I will attempt to type is that I was virtually at that precipice of quitting work… i got with within a hare’s breath. But somehow that inexplicable  voice that isn’t me led me to attend staff-wide end-of-summer party. I don’t know how I could have let them happen. I mean, I get through my workdays feeling violated, psyche-wise. And there I went, feeling insanely obliged. for what, I ask you?