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About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.

gone

Posted on February 10, 2016 by The Lost Pedestrian

how is it possible to move away from some things without moving toward other things? this is the question i ask myself in this latest phase of adriftness. where am i heading and what am i leaving behind? what is … Continue reading →

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volunteering

Posted on February 6, 2016 by The Lost Pedestrian

i ran into a bit of danger on my way to the café in Cambridge from where I type these words. i was crossing one of those impenetrable intersections near Harvard Square and I did not know how to navigate … Continue reading →

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elsewhere

Posted on February 4, 2016 by The Lost Pedestrian

well, so far this dismantling of my previous life is not working so well… on just about every level. i am trying my hardest not to lay the blame on you, dear reader, for not stopping me when you had … Continue reading →

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office mate

Posted on January 27, 2016 by The Lost Pedestrian

i am at a loss for words. my vocabulary does not seem to work anymore. my dialect is an artifact. how can i replace it? what to replace it with? i’ve decided to absorb the dialect of the woman who … Continue reading →

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volunteering

Posted on January 27, 2016 by The Lost Pedestrian

i still have yet to figure out what i’m doing here. everything feels unnatural, inorganic, out-of-sync, out-of-tune. difficult. i seem to seek out difficult situations and difficult people. i came here voluntarily. and i knew this is how it would … Continue reading →

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Irreparable

Posted on January 23, 2016 by The Lost Pedestrian

tonight my new city feels eerily like my old city. but i should qualify that by admitting that I am typing these words from a Starbucks (in Somerville). I tried the independent coffee place across the street but it was … Continue reading →

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facemask

Posted on January 21, 2016 by The Lost Pedestrian

today i feel so much lighter, for some reason, with my old city behind me. and a new life waiting to emerge, even if it’s a replica of the old life, in a different time zone. a 2nd date with … Continue reading →

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pretend confidence

Posted on January 17, 2016 by The Lost Pedestrian

Week number 2 in this new city will soon be a whisp. what have i learned in these past 2 weeks? i’ve learned that i am not sleeping nearly enough to function at the level i am required to function. i’ve … Continue reading →

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setting forth (and back)

Posted on January 13, 2016 by The Lost Pedestrian

i left my home and all i knew of the world and all i’ve ever loved to come to this town where i am but a stranger. at this moment in time, it might be up there amongst the biggest … Continue reading →

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the mayor

Posted on December 4, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

i’ve been thinking a lot about the mayor of Chicago. what an odious man he seems to be… odious, as in arrogant, conniving, predatory, egomanical, megalomaniacal, insensitive, duplicitous…  And so unfazed by the fact that so many people find him to be odious … Continue reading →

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350 miles

Posted on November 30, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

lately i’ve been feeling really fatigued… a body/mind/spirit crushing fatigue, like all of the time. i try to stay alert, but i drift so easily into dreams. not even daydreams. but actual dreams that i see more clearly than the … Continue reading →

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the ladder

Posted on November 10, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

i am not sure why, but i seem to be taking things so literally these days. seeing only what’s in front of me at the moment… or strategizing about decisions i cannot make, like buying shoes or shirts or relocating … Continue reading →

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staying

Posted on October 26, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

my friend’s cancer has been determined untreatable and she is now in hospice. although i have lost several people over the years, this is the first time i have experienced anyone who has gone through the hell of chemo and radiation with … Continue reading →

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another try

Posted on October 15, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

The friend I mentioned to you in my previous post has decided that she would like to go on living. I was feeling selfish for wanting her to battle through more chemo and radiation. Who would want to go through that? … Continue reading →

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there

Posted on October 8, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

a friend may be slowly dying. and by “slowly,” i mean more quickly than the dying that begins when we were born. it’s pretty devastating to see it happen and to not be able to do anything about it. it’s … Continue reading →

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