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About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.

setting forth (and back)

Posted on January 13, 2016 by The Lost Pedestrian

i left my home and all i knew of the world and all i’ve ever loved to come to this town where i am but a stranger. at this moment in time, it might be up there amongst the biggest … Continue reading →

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the mayor

Posted on December 4, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

i’ve been thinking a lot about the mayor of Chicago. what an odious man he seems to be… odious, as in arrogant, conniving, predatory, egomanical, megalomaniacal, insensitive, duplicitous…  And so unfazed by the fact that so many people find him to be odious … Continue reading →

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350 miles

Posted on November 30, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

lately i’ve been feeling really fatigued… a body/mind/spirit crushing fatigue, like all of the time. i try to stay alert, but i drift so easily into dreams. not even daydreams. but actual dreams that i see more clearly than the … Continue reading →

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the ladder

Posted on November 10, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

i am not sure why, but i seem to be taking things so literally these days. seeing only what’s in front of me at the moment… or strategizing about decisions i cannot make, like buying shoes or shirts or relocating … Continue reading →

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staying

Posted on October 26, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

my friend’s cancer has been determined untreatable and she is now in hospice. although i have lost several people over the years, this is the first time i have experienced anyone who has gone through the hell of chemo and radiation with … Continue reading →

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another try

Posted on October 15, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

The friend I mentioned to you in my previous post has decided that she would like to go on living. I was feeling selfish for wanting her to battle through more chemo and radiation. Who would want to go through that? … Continue reading →

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there

Posted on October 8, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

a friend may be slowly dying. and by “slowly,” i mean more quickly than the dying that begins when we were born. it’s pretty devastating to see it happen and to not be able to do anything about it. it’s … Continue reading →

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yellow book

Posted on September 15, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

the train felt different today. people were kinder and more relaxed and respectful and not spiteful or vindictive or territorial. someone sat next to me and was reading a novel with a yellow cover. or what i imagined to be a … Continue reading →

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a bad maneuver

Posted on September 13, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

i’ve been feeling terrible about something not that terrible that happened to me the other day. actually, it didn’t happen to me. it happened with me being where it happened. On a train. A crowded train at rush hour. When … Continue reading →

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Good

Posted on September 12, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

I’ve been thinking a lot about jobs. Maybe my job is to write. Maybe your job is to be written to. But that’s such an unfair statement. So unfair. Unfair for me to tell anybody what their job is or how to do … Continue reading →

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Summoning

Posted on September 10, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

These days I seem to be afflicted by a rather prolonged and bothersome lack of imagination, hence the sparsity of time I devote to writing or creating… anything. But one of my spirit guides recently informed me that a lack … Continue reading →

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oatmeal

Posted on August 25, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

i am not sure why it has taken so long, but i’ve just come to the realization that both hope and hopelessness are more or less the same thing. they both live on the earth, but there’s no real grounding beneath … Continue reading →

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time is erasing me

Posted on July 29, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

7 years have passed since my bicycle crash, 7 years and 13 hours since my fall from grace. sometimes i feel time collapsing all around me. the steady propulsion of time slowly erasing me. but everyone knows summer is the … Continue reading →

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delusion #9052

Posted on July 29, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

how strange this is. this delusion that i can control things. that i am in control. that i can read into things that can’t be read. whatever could have spawned that notion in my head? i am trying and trying … Continue reading →

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down and out

Posted on July 27, 2015 by The Lost Pedestrian

i think you saw me on the train. but i may not have seen you. i was either looking down or out the window. down and out. for quite a while. a long time. when i got off the train … Continue reading →

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