Monthly Archives: September 2012

everything

Posted on September 17, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

have you ever run into situations where friends, people you have known for years, make assumptions about you that you know are not true, but which bother you anyway, and then you start to believe they are true and so … Continue reading →

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tonight’s word is

Posted on September 16, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

subcutaneous.

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tell me how

Posted on September 15, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

tell me how to defy gravity and I’ll do it. I swear. And I’ll do anything after that. I promise.

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an awkward moment

Posted on September 15, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

What is the difference between a body and a ghost? I could not tell which one you were. The streets, the galleries, the bookstores, the pizzerias, the train platforms, the office hallways, the lobbies, the bathrooms, the bedrooms, the elevators, … Continue reading →

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help wanted

Posted on September 14, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

such a dreariness, a weariness, a bitterness, and yes, a bile, consumes me at work. How I wish I had thicker skin to shield me from the insults and indignities and other gestures of utter disrespect becoming increasingly manifest at … Continue reading →

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the consortium

Posted on September 13, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

an oscillating consortium of bitterness and exuberance, resentment and humility, fears of hopes gone asunder, an anxious plea to the fire gods to extinguish such fears, a new dent on an old car, a joy in exertion, a numbness that … Continue reading →

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The squall has ceased to be the cause of my complaint.

Posted on September 12, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

There’s something about the way the city is slanted tonight that throws me askew, even while seated. I first noticed this while riding the train. Every bump and turn, acceleration and deceleration, vibration and stillness… my body just didn’t react … Continue reading →

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weary

Posted on September 11, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

too weary to blog tonight. I’m fighting heartbreak from seeing a good friend whom I had not seen in nearly a year in such a fragile state… I can’t imagine anyone more vibrant and charismatic… but seeing him tonight, so … Continue reading →

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unalone wolf

Posted on September 10, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

I ended my nearly 48 hours of not speaking to anyone but cashiers and front desk clerks around 9pm this evening when my mother called. It was very very tempting to extend the duration, but how can you not answer … Continue reading →

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The air smells like barbecue dust

Posted on September 8, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian
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It doesn’t take much lack of imagination for me to be sitting outside at Starbucks somewhere in Lincoln Park. At this Starbucks, they’re serving wine and people are drinking. They’re playing “Rock and Roll High School” on the sound system, … Continue reading →

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cauliflowers for O

Posted on September 8, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

today was not a day but a blur. almost like a smudge mark on the windshield, but i could see around it here and there. people walked passed and through it. i waved back. And there were flickers of recognition. … Continue reading →

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exit poll

Posted on September 7, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

Redemption is real, but seems so far away. What can I do to get there? For decade upon decade upon decade, I have been figuring out ways to not blunder… completely delusional and profoundly limiting. Shaking things up, subverting automatic … Continue reading →

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confidence

Posted on September 5, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

today, i tried to exude a fake sense of confidence and almost got away with it. i don’t know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. not having actual confidence, or getting away with faking, or not … Continue reading →

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the inert

Posted on September 4, 2012 by The Lost Pedestrian

today, an epic struggle against the forces of inertia. there are days when I awaken with this indeterminate weight of uncertainty. I eat my oatmeal with protein powder and my banana and swallow my supplements… and then … and then … Continue reading →

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