a very quick post as it is very very late and long past my expiration hour.

today was one of those days where there were so many moments of embarrassment. so many moments, I could not possibly count them all. i would take tiny step towards expressing myself–at work mostly–and then instantly regret it. i’m even embarrassed to admit how embarrassed i felt. I even embarrassed myself on Facebook… i should never have shown up on Facebook today. i don’t even know why Facebook is even worth mentioning.

i hear the voice of one of my sisters telling me, “don’t apologize!!! I can’t stand your apologizing.” and then repressing my instinctual response to any kind of harsh criticism or scolding.

I’m not sure what made me think of this.

i am not doing blog therapy here. wouldn’t that be terrible if that happened? Then I’d really be sorry.