Author Archives: The Lost Pedestrian

About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.

trancetive

Posted on July 19, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

my latest trance is now going on hour no. 64. i can’t seem to step out of it, walk away from it. i’m in it. very deeply in it. i can’t say it’s meditative, contemplative, tranquil or effervescent. i can’t … Continue reading →

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the disqualifyer

Posted on July 17, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

most of the day was spent walking upstairs and then downstairs and then back upstairs and downstairs again, still trying to determine what my priorities are. but that’s not really what i had on my mind. what i had on … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged delusion, disqualifying, failure, fortune, luck, mean-spirited, perseverance, sarcasm, self-doubt, validation, voice | Leave a comment

priorities

Posted on July 16, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

somewhere midway through my life’s journey, i lost my ability to prioritize. between apartment hunting, job hunting, art projects started and forsaken, relationships renewed or abandoned, attachments, detachments, the need for solitude, the need to be tribal, the need to … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged abilities, achievement, animals, art, attachment, communication, defeat, desire, detachment, Journey, lackadaisacal, passivity, priorities, rebellion, repellence, seduction, subservience, surrender, telepathy, tribal, weight, yearning | Leave a comment

at the beach

Posted on July 14, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

which leads me to acknowledge that i am lost when i do not wander. there are days when i think i do not wander nearly enough. and then there are days where i feel as if i am condemned to … Continue reading →

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the ghost at the spectacle

Posted on July 13, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

a ghostly experience tonight at a soccer stadium in a southwest quadrant of the city, this marathon music fest with 4 bands, the last which was Bob Dylan and his band. the audience seemed to be there more for the … Continue reading →

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what is the meaning of like?

Posted on July 10, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i don’t know what is happening with human communication, but it feels like it’s becoming more vacuous. Or maybe it’s just me. But I must be responding to something out there. For example, a facebook friend has liked one of … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged deprogrammed, Facebook, like, love, meaning, mystery, obviousness, programmed, surface, vacuous, XO, XOXO | Leave a comment

meeting expectations

Posted on July 10, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

at work today, they surprised me with my first (and hopefully final) 6-month performance review. I mostly “met expectations,” but i “need improvement” in my communication skills. By October 2013, my bosses expect me to have completed some sort of … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged assertiveness, confidence, group-think, groups, meeting expectations, performance review, pride, standards | Leave a comment

the right lane

Posted on July 8, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

7 hours on the road today. 370 miles. traffic is like some sort of balancing act between harmony and dissonance. i usually see myself as the type of person who naturally veers to the right lane to dodge the drivers … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged competition, happiness, infancy, left lane, miles, mph, right lane, sub-culture, traffic | Leave a comment

iowa (2)

Posted on July 7, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i’ve spent a lot of time these past few days in iowa contemplating how, oftentimes, art, creative engagement with the world, can sometimes be my one act of defiance. And it’s a defiance that i need to exist in the … Continue reading →

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something

Posted on July 6, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

there are some who might say you have a way of always taking nothing and turning it into something when it really really was nothing, but still, you made such a big deal out of it. and you just clung … Continue reading →

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in transition

Posted on July 5, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i am trying to find a new way to write that does not allow sadness to creep in. i know this is going to take a lot of work, a lot of effort. and it has to be completely authentic. … Continue reading →

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iowa (1)

Posted on July 5, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i love it here in iowa. i am finding this to be a place of many trees. this is the place they gather these days, and why not? and many mosquitoes. you can feel the mosquitoes looming, you know they … Continue reading →

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the clarion

Posted on July 4, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

1 a.m. at the Clarion Highlander Convention Center Hotel in the one unpleasant part of Iowa City. A series of unfortunate turns and just as unfortunate choices led me here. But i know i am here for a reason, and … Continue reading →

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the great destroyer

Posted on July 3, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i wish i knew more about physics because i’d like to understand what happens to energy when scattered, dispersed, without a channel, a vessel. since i “completed” The Un Known, I really have no idea what to do with myself. … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged art-making, clues, codes, collapse, d, death, email, ending, humans, hurt, mystified, signs, subtexts | Leave a comment

networking: a non-user’s guide

Posted on July 2, 2013 by The Lost Pedestrian

i just spent 3 and a 1/2 days at a library conference, which i justified to my employer as an essential networking/professional development opportunity. but i forgot to tell them that networking may be at the top of the list … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged celery, cheese cubes, evangelical christians, ipad, networking, poetry, professional development, publishers, smartphone, texting | Leave a comment