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Morrissey

Posted on December 5, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

Everywhere I go today, I hear Morrissey. There’s no escaping him. He’s singing in every coffeehouse, in every lobby, in every grocery store, in vacant apartments, in parking garages, on planes, at Walgreens, at the lake, drowning out the waves. … Continue reading →

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holiday’d out

Posted on November 30, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

this post has been deleted due to excessive negativity. over Thanksgiving weekend, the thought finally occurred to me that there are so many other ways to be treated rudely besides being with family. But then I felt awful and guilty about … Continue reading →

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time has ceased not to pass

Posted on November 28, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

“my time is the time i am living right now and even if i like the world less and less – with good reason – it is mine, absolutely. No retirement, no retreat. I don’t know what it means to … Continue reading →

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15

Posted on November 26, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

i feel like a cement mixer or an ostrich peddler or a scar eraser or a dry eraser or a gymnest teetering on/off a balance beam the day falls indefinitely upon me and i feel its weight sometimes i cave into … Continue reading →

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very very rough draft

Posted on November 22, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

i am adapting one of my videos for live performance. i have no idea how well this is going to work. i may regret it. but here’s where i am so far. A            Hi B            Hello A            I didn’t think … Continue reading →

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mounting evidence

Posted on November 16, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

I’ve spent most of the weekend reading the latest medical/psychiatric journals, peer-reviewed, and there is mounting evidence within the community  of the health benefits of memory loss. Recent experiments demonstrate that too much memory can lower stamina, hinder consciousness,  increase the incidence … Continue reading →

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my situation

Posted on November 12, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

I’m sitting here, in the last hour of my workday. I have not spoken to a single sentient being since the weekend, although I’ve exchanged quite a few words with 20-something males. My workplace is a very testosterone-infused, fraternity-like culture. What … Continue reading →

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waterproofing

Posted on November 11, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

winter is almost here, they tell me. i don’t think i am as certain of this as they are. but hearing them speak is a subtle reminder that this year, i should not forgot to waterproof my outer shell, while also … Continue reading →

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the right moment

Posted on November 6, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

this friend i had very very briefly, very briefly dated, like maybe once, but we became better friends, casually mentioned her “new boyfriend,” completely out of context, before we ended our phone conversation. then a few minutes later she called … Continue reading →

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turkey in the straw

Posted on November 2, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

i’m in huge trouble. you might say, a world of trouble. although i’ve been feeling that it might be time to accept that i don’t have another performance in me, i submitted a proposal to stage a performance at a “fringe” theater … Continue reading →

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noncirrhosis

Posted on October 19, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

the hepatologist  called me to give me the really great news about my biopsy–that I do not have cirrhosis of the liver. the biopsy was completely normal. i was shocked. she went on to explain that the scarring and nodules on my … Continue reading →

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Posted on October 15, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

waiting. still waiting. actually not very still waiting. i wish i knew what will happen next. everything is so unsettled and up in the air. i am so used to uncertainty, although i’ve never gotten comfortable with it, but this time around, i’ve … Continue reading →

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Vocal rest (1)

Posted on October 12, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

A few years ago, following a vocal cord surgery, I was not allowed to speak for 2 weeks. Fortunately my friend C was kind enough to meet me at café, and patient enough to collaborate with me in typing out our conversation … Continue reading →

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the wrong person

Posted on October 10, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

and then I received another message from that dating site I am on, but only as a very passive subscriber waiting for someone with whom I might have an affinity to miraculously emerge and discover me, which i guess is … Continue reading →

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courtesy call

Posted on October 10, 2014 by The Lost Pedestrian

for over 16 weeks now, someone has been calling me at least twice a day, leaving messages that first disturbed me, frightened me because the only sound i could make out was heavy breathing. but today i noticed other ambient … Continue reading →

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