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could somebody tell me why writing has suddenly become like this scary thing to me?  is there something that triggered it? the idea of focusing upon something feels hugely impossible because i tend to stray somewhere else. maybe i’ve become … Continue reading →

sometimes when you are focusing upon your survival, as you navigate from one breath to the next, it’s easy to lose sight of all that surrounds you. all of the people who keep you afloat. if you could be just like … Continue reading →

as the plane began its descent to Minnesota, the pilot announced his apologies for the turbulence. i wish i could have told him that, really, he had nothing to feel sorry about. if anyone was to blame, it was The Wind. but … Continue reading →

i am trying to feel more hopeful about things in a way that feels genuine. not as a way to sidestep around a history of losses and disappointments i feel powerless to overcome. not as a pretend hopefulness that cannot … Continue reading →

somewhere, under the sky, i ceased to feel alone. it was a watershed moment. there was nothing to eclipse it. i thought, what if this moment were taken away? I would have no idea how to replace it, not one. It’s … Continue reading →

i knew there would be emptiness in the days following the closing of my performance, but i did not quite expect the emptiness to be quite so emptying. it’s like the performance never existed. nothing magical, nothing transforming, no major shifts … Continue reading →

my stomach seems to be making its way through the day without any excess delusions. now i am just hoping the rest of me will follow that lead.

have you ever been so spell bound by beauty that you don’t quite know what to do with it because you can’t contain it all? and it needs some sort of outlet for expression. but it’s so difficult to identify, to … Continue reading →

“what will become of us when this performance is over?,” they shuddered to ask. And I said, “which performance?” Then they said, “The one we’re in.” “What about the one you’re not in? Isn’t it a natural progression to move from one … Continue reading →

tonight, i’ve been trying to figure out ways for me to pay people back who have given me things. and it feels impossible. my resources are so scarce and i ask for so much and i like to think that … Continue reading →

do you know that moment that occurs when your mind is completely empty, but you are completely unaware of your surroundings? what is that moment called?  i know that it happens some time between birth and the end of birth. there must … Continue reading →

i’ve been utterly consumed with this performance of late, which is why you don’t see me around here very much anymore. and it’s affecting (effecting?) my balance.  i swear i almost slipped on the ice at least 4 times today. actually, … Continue reading →