do you know that moment that occurs when your mind is completely empty, but you are completely unaware of your surroundings? what is that moment called?  i know that it happens some time between birth and the end of birth. there must be a word for it. it’s so frustrating to me that i can’t find it.

when it happens to me, people seem to think i am a deep, contemplative thinker.  but it’s not really anything close to enlightenment, pre-enlightenment, post-enlightenment. there is nothing zen/empty mind about it. it’s kind of like the deep sleep state that should be happening when i’m actually asleep instead of, say, while i’m at work, speaking to you now.

it’s not daydreaming either because daydreams take you somewhere, but there are no fantasies when this moment occurs. it does not really take you anywhere. gosh, why is it so hard to find the right word?