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I was envious of you and not pleased about it. Far from pleased. Very very far from pleased. I wish I could be just as far away from this envy as I am from pleased. Because you write voluminously and … Continue reading

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heart test

She was daring me to play some sort of online word game which I flagrantly resisted, explaining that the only word game I would make time to play is the typing of words into this space. So I should probably … Continue reading

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big problem

I heard a voice say, ‘please, please, don’t make me write! not tonight! anything but that!’ And I said, ‘nobody is making you do anything.’ And the voice said, ‘that’s the problem. that’s the big problem. not knowing what to … Continue reading

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uncanny

I would have given anything to get out of there, but when they gave me a chance to exit … when they left the door wide open … I just stood there in disbelief. And then I told them how … Continue reading

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the mission

I became an ancient astronaut today out on a mission to find out what happens to people who remain sentient and breathing, in spite of everything else. I did not intend for this to be a solitary mission. There is … Continue reading

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On notice

I’m trying to think of a way to end things with J in such a say as she does not even notice. So far I’m not getting any good ideas. Other than to point out how incompatible we are which … Continue reading

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2nd booster

Today my doctor told me that there really was not much point getting a second booster shot because people who get the 2nd booster are still getting infected and that I should wait until the Fall when MAYBE there will … Continue reading

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Hated

This time it’s true. My fish hate me. All of them.. The platys, the Congo tetras especially. And I don’t do well when somebody hates me. I end up acting in a way that reinforces why they hate me. I … Continue reading

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From a Tholazan bed (St. Louis)

Here we are lying in bed on a cold dreary afternoon in a bungalow somewhere near south side of St. Louis, recovering from a voluminous brunch at the Southwest Diner. I had the Medio breakfast. You had the grande. It … Continue reading

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Destitute

I dreamt that Laurie Anderson was singing one of my songs (entitled “63”). She sounded surprisingly bad at it, while I was expecting the song was perfect for her. At one point, she seemed to be mocking the lyrics. And … Continue reading

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86,388 seconds

12 seconds, I am guessing that this is the amount of time I have spent today thinking of someone other than myself. Or myself in relation to you. But always back to me. With no variation. This amounts to 86,388 … Continue reading

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The Call

Each time they call, I convince myself beforehand that this will be The Call. This will be The Call where they tell me that they think we should end it. Whatever it is. The thing that needs an ending. I … Continue reading

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Great!

“Hi, how are you doing?,” she said as she passed me on the sidewalk. “Great!,” I said. And then she said, “I’m back!.” “Great!,” I said, even though I did not know where she was back from because I had … Continue reading

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the other me

How long does it take to redeem yourself from transgressions of sensitivity and tact? I fear I have crossed the line again with this new person in my life. I thought we were doing so well until she told me … Continue reading

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Deluge

Today I caught under a deluge. I’m referring to rain. But then there’s that other deluge I am caught under. One deluge ended. The other did not. The deluge was so intense, driving through it with the visibility of a … Continue reading

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