I only have 20 minutes to think of something to say at my therapist appointment. But all I really want to do is to walk in the snow. Nothing would please me more.
But since it’s too late to cancel, I had better think of something.
I guess I could talk about my pants. The pants that were just delivered which it turns out are not the right fit. Should I return it to the store? Should I do UPS? And what is the correct size to replace it with? How can one tell when you buy clothing online? Is there such a thing as a correct size? Maybe I am the incorrect size and the pants are perfect.
These are the real dilemmas I confront each day.
I could talk about another experiment with a gummy yesterday which at first felt pretty good and it put me in a mood to water all of my plants and change the water in the humidifier. Which had about a 10 minute positive impact on my outlook towards life.
I could talk about how I think I broke my new vacuum cleaner while attempting to empty it without reading the instructions. And I don’t have the mechanical skill to repair it.
I could talk about how I lied to a friend to get out of going to her birthday party, telling her I had a tickets to an opera that I had considered going to last night. But you see it turned out I had the date wrong, of the opera. And if my friend looked up the opera online she would wonder how I could possibly have gone to a performance that never happened. And then I’ll have to come up with an excuse to explain that.
I could talk about why I did not want to go to this party. That I have not been to a party since at least 2015. That’s a pretty long time. And whatever social skills I once had have completely atrophied and my confidence in them all but withered away.
I could talk about last night’s episode of Love It or List It and my new addiction to reality house hunting shows.
I could talk about the longest period of time I’ve yet experienced without any deaths in my aquarium.
Now I worry that I won’t have time to fit all of this into a 50 minute appointment. I could talk about that, too.