Author Archives: The Lost Pedestrian

i knew there would be emptiness in the days following the closing of my performance, but i did not quite expect the emptiness to be quite so emptying. it’s like the performance never existed. nothing magical, nothing transforming, no major shifts … Continue reading →

my stomach seems to be making its way through the day without any excess delusions. now i am just hoping the rest of me will follow that lead.

have you ever been so spell bound by beauty that you don’t quite know what to do with it because you can’t contain it all? and it needs some sort of outlet for expression. but it’s so difficult to identify, to … Continue reading →

“what will become of us when this performance is over?,” they shuddered to ask. And I said, “which performance?” Then they said, “The one we’re in.” “What about the one you’re not in? Isn’t it a natural progression to move from one … Continue reading →

tonight, i’ve been trying to figure out ways for me to pay people back who have given me things. and it feels impossible. my resources are so scarce and i ask for so much and i like to think that … Continue reading →

do you know that moment that occurs when your mind is completely empty, but you are completely unaware of your surroundings? what is that moment called?  i know that it happens some time between birth and the end of birth. there must … Continue reading →

i’ve been utterly consumed with this performance of late, which is why you don’t see me around here very much anymore. and it’s affecting (effecting?) my balance.  i swear i almost slipped on the ice at least 4 times today. actually, … Continue reading →

i’m considering expanding upon an earlier blog post as a performance, which may or may not be a good idea. and I have no idea how anyone could memorize this for the stage. I guess there are probably some people … Continue reading →

finally… finally, 3 years in the making,  I finally found an apartment. absolutely the most perfect place. a loft. lots of open space. quiet. dog friendly. an actual kitchen. and closets. close to the train.  tomorrow, I was going to … Continue reading →

ever since the day i joined this cloud appreciation society, i have seen very few interesting clouds. i know they are out there, but i don’t always have the presence of mind to witness them. and the ones that are remarkable … Continue reading →

Everywhere I go today, I hear Morrissey. There’s no escaping him. He’s singing in every coffeehouse, in every lobby, in every grocery store, in vacant apartments, in parking garages, on planes, at Walgreens, at the lake, drowning out the waves. … Continue reading →

this post has been deleted due to excessive negativity. over Thanksgiving weekend, the thought finally occurred to me that there are so many other ways to be treated rudely besides being with family. But then I felt awful and guilty about … Continue reading →