Author Archives: The Lost Pedestrian

Each time they call, I convince myself beforehand that this will be The Call. This will be The Call where they tell me that they think we should end it. Whatever it is. The thing that needs an ending. I … Continue reading →

“Hi, how are you doing?,” she said as she passed me on the sidewalk. “Great!,” I said. And then she said, “I’m back!.” “Great!,” I said, even though I did not know where she was back from because I had … Continue reading →

How long does it take to redeem yourself from transgressions of sensitivity and tact? I fear I have crossed the line again with this new person in my life. I thought we were doing so well until she told me … Continue reading →

Today I caught under a deluge. I’m referring to rain. But then there’s that other deluge I am caught under. One deluge ended. The other did not. The deluge was so intense, driving through it with the visibility of a … Continue reading →

Hi. I just called to say ‘hello.’ You know I think of you all of the time. And even if I had more time, I would most likely not stop thinking of you. There isn’t a moment that goes by … Continue reading →

such a fool I was such a foolishy foolish fool I often wonder just how many minutes I have not spent as a fool Or The Fool A fool such as I Even now, as I imagine someone reading these … Continue reading →

My therapist is curious to know why I never know what to say in therapy, except to say that I don’t know what to say. She doesn’t seem to think it is a problem. Or doesn’t seem to understand why … Continue reading →

Time was running out of us. Or as one of us said, there was no time to lose. We were trying to beat the traffic. We could feel it coming for us. The traffic. I said what’s the hurry? And … Continue reading →

You never write to me anymore. I write to you all of the time. But I forget to type it out. And then I forget to send you what I forget to type. That sounds complicated. It is SO complicated. … Continue reading →

if only I could feel something, I might know I am not dead inside

Have you ever fallen in love with a licensed social worker who you then tried to impress and eventually win over by helping her diagnose and then treat her most difficult clients? If so, how did that work for you? … Continue reading →

Things I have forgotten .. How to write When to write Who to write to Where I fit in, in the larger scheme of things What the larger scheme of things appears to be How to jump into things without … Continue reading →

I ‘braved’ going out in the midst of a pandemic surge to see an allergist to see why I am having all of these sneezing seizures of late. Like sneezing 6 or 7 times in a row. Not that I … Continue reading →

OMG. I can’t believe I haven’t written anything in over a month. And so much has happened in the world, so much as happened in me, I would not know where to begin. How strange it is to be back … Continue reading →

In last night’s dream, I had just been elected as Senator of Massachusetts. I have no idea how that happened. I wasn’t even on the ballot. At first I thought there was no way I wanted the job. But then … Continue reading →