Author Archives: The Lost Pedestrian

About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.

the narrator

Posted on October 10, 2019

how strange it is for me to assume that i don’t have a story. how strange it is for me to assume that I don’t have a story simply because i don’t have a narrator. I can’t tell you how … Continue reading →

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out of numbness

Posted on October 5, 2019

How does one awaken oneself out of numbness? My first thought is to fall back asleep to enter the dream world where nothing is numb. But I think that would be cheating. My second thought is to set oneself on … Continue reading →

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5780

Posted on September 30, 2019

Tonight is the night it became 5780. I have little idea of what that means. But hopefully in 5780 I will become a better human than I was in 5779. The kind of human I would want to be around. … Continue reading →

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something beyond

Posted on September 29, 2019

I am trying to think of something that literally did not happen today. Or it happened, but not literally. And I’m coming up empty. It’s been an empty day. It’s been an empty year, an empty past 4 years. I … Continue reading →

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Misaligned

Posted on September 18, 2019

I just went through a flurry of job interviews in a short span of time. And came up empty. I was hoping upon hope, pleading, putting everything I had into getting this job in Minneapolis, but they went with a … Continue reading →

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Tethered

Posted on September 18, 2019

My brain is running me ragged. It doesn’t stop churning. On and on it goes. On and on. It’s so monotonous. And it’s exhausting. And it doesn’t seem to care that it’s exhausting me. One would think my brain would … Continue reading →

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Colleen

Posted on September 10, 2019

I’ve decided that it might be a good idea for me to spend more time in conversation with the dead, especially when I often cannot think of anything to say to the living. Tonight I was talking to this friend … Continue reading →

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Longing

Posted on September 7, 2019

I long. I am longing. I am not lacking in longing. Longing is something I do. I cannot say for sure that I do it well. I just do. The days I am not longing are disconcerting. To me. I … Continue reading →

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Follow Up?

Posted on September 4, 2019

I’m trying to figure out if I should send a follow-up text to my okc date from the other night. But what do I have to say, especially when the expectation that I will ever see this person again in … Continue reading →

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too much brown

Posted on September 3, 2019

now that I feel nothing except for a headache, I’ve decided that now might be an opportune moment to write. now that I’m numb and i’ve run out of time, I thought this moment is probably more opportune than any … Continue reading →

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Frank Poole

Posted on September 2, 2019

I spent the day driving in circles, or in some cases, ovals. I couldn’t seem to get anywhere I needed to go, but it probably didn’t help that I had no idea where I needed to go today. Completely directionless, … Continue reading →

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falling short

Posted on August 20, 2019

i wish i could find a way to get people i would want to sit next to me on the train to sit next to me on the train instead of the people who sit next to me on the … Continue reading →

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Hyper-Hyper Sensitive

Posted on August 9, 2019

It’s become an obsession. Maybe not an obsession but a hyper-hyper-sensitivity to the movement of time. I’m ultra aware of each second ticking by and each second I am doing nothing nothing positive or new. Nothing that I haven’t done … Continue reading →

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Am I Who I am?

Posted on August 5, 2019

I keep hearing all of these politicians say, “that’s not who we are” in relation to something odious said or done by the most odious of humans who sadly tragically odiously occupies the White House; or another horrific odious incident … Continue reading →

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Piano teacher

Posted on August 3, 2019

Do you ever have one of those days where not being dead is like this rude inconvenience? The kind of day where all of your hopes and pleas to the Universe for something to come through for you–something that might … Continue reading →

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