Author Archives: The Lost Pedestrian

About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.

Not terrible news

Today may have been a first. The first time a doctor called me to tell me news that was not terrible. In this case, I don’t have knee cancer. Only I would be at risk for something like cancer of … Continue reading

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Kitchenwhere

At this moment I am listening to the dishwasher which might be the first music I’ve heard all day. I am not sure why I turned it on. There were no dishes to wash. In fact, there are no dishes … Continue reading

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On the train. Numb and fatigued. It’s the numbness that I’m really concerned about. It looks like I’m not going anywhere for the time being. And that concerns me, too. The job plods on. I search for change but it … Continue reading

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Irritating, Irritated

Everything off-kilter. I do not do very well with less than 4 hours of sleep. My timing was off all day. Which made me irritated. Although hopefully not irritating. I would be the last one to know. Actually I can’t … Continue reading

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Option A

OK. I’ve been meaning to ask you something, but I’ve never been sure how best to articulate it … but how can you tell if A.  You are talented but not demonstrating it nearly enough to get noticed, thus denying … Continue reading

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Heavy niceness

My friend C was complaining about my friend H who is her co-worker but not her friend and apparently H talks a lot at work. It sounds like H talks and talks and talks. I guess that would bother me, … Continue reading

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addition/subtraction

It’s Sunday night at 8:00 and I just realize I have not spoken a word in 29 hours. And if I subtracted the 1 hour I spent talking to my therapist yesterday, I have not spoken to a soul in … Continue reading

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My calling

I am stuck. Again. I want to get my writing out there. But I have no idea how to go about that. It takes a focus, assertiveness, aggressiveness and confidence that I am lacking. It’s a real problem. Plus I … Continue reading

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Too much of nothing

My day at work began with oatmeal and a banana. And then it continued until lunch (salmon salad, overly salted). Plodded on until my nap on the bathroom floor. Why do I sleep better on bathroom floors than on my … Continue reading

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A mole’s life

Trump is killing me. I am dying beneath the weight of him. Since November 8 2016, things are gradually leaving me. My creative spark: gone. Any other kind of spark: gone. Abstract thinking: gone. My ability to read anything other … Continue reading

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Bobolink Trail

I took a late afternoon stroll into the forest, trying to find Sibley’s Farm. Walking on the Bobolink Trail, following the blue paint trail marks dotting the trees.      As I wandered deeper and deeper into the forest, I … Continue reading

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the narrator

how strange it is for me to assume that i don’t have a story. how strange it is for me to assume that I don’t have a story simply because i don’t have a narrator. I can’t tell you how … Continue reading

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out of numbness

How does one awaken oneself out of numbness? My first thought is to fall back asleep to enter the dream world where nothing is numb. But I think that would be cheating. My second thought is to set oneself on … Continue reading

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5780

Tonight is the night it became 5780. I have little idea of what that means. But hopefully in 5780 I will become a better human than I was in 5779. The kind of human I would want to be around. … Continue reading

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something beyond

I am trying to think of something that literally did not happen today. Or it happened, but not literally. And I’m coming up empty. It’s been an empty day. It’s been an empty year, an empty past 4 years. I … Continue reading

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