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the call

I’m nervous tonight. Anxious and nervous. Nerxious. There’s a possibility that this person might call me, or text me if I don’t answer, and even though I would be so much happier not responding, I am afraid I will be … Continue reading

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gastropods

Sometimes I wonder what the angel fish really thinks of the snail. Not what they want me to think that they’re thinking, but what is really going on deep within their psyches and their souls. They look like they have … Continue reading

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unpaid interns

The effort not to make an effort is exhausting and exhilarating at the same time. Which could mean that the fastest way to get somewhere is to never leave, or always leave Even the best laid plans are the ones … Continue reading

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Happiness

Lots of people keep telling me that I will never be happy until I give up on all notions of being an artist. That the best thing to do right now is to not even think about it. I felt … Continue reading

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sighs

Can you recall the exact time and day that you discovered you have the ability to sigh? Or your longest sigh on record and what led up to it, what inspired it? Was there a time in your life when … Continue reading

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any dog

People keep asking me … some people … if I’ve made any decisions yet. And I say, no I have not made any decisions yet. And they want an explanation. I don’t have an explanation. But it helps when they … Continue reading

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nothing #3 (50 minutes)

sort of a continuation of my previous nothing session. inane characters I have seen on inane Netflix series interpreting my half dream thoughts aging so strange that I am thinking of material things and inane TV/movies I have seen more … Continue reading

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10 minutes ago

I can recall the time when someone once asked me if I was making any new years resolutions. I think that was about 10 minutes ago. And I replied, when do I not make new years resolutions? I probably make … Continue reading

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not nothing

My friend/spirit guide/mentor/student Lisa has given me an assignment to sit still and do nothing. It’s not meditation, it’s not focusing on the breath or trying to quiet the mind, it’s not intended to be anything. She told me she … Continue reading

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Dream – December 17, 2022 (just kidding)

I was at my current workplace. This person I did not recognize was sitting in the cubicle across from me. I was surprised because I did not know there was a cubicle across from me. Most of the people in … Continue reading

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Dream – Christmas morning

I guess this dream was about finding things. The first thing I found was the glass bowl I regularly use for my regular breakfast of oatmeal. There was just a tiny bit of oatmeal remaining in the bowl and I … Continue reading

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Online shopping

I’ve been viciously beset with an acute attack of unrepentant consumerism and I’m not quite sure what to do about it. Any remaining shards of creativity have been eclipsed by online shopping. The research skill that was once my forte … Continue reading

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Clark Street.

I seem to be having these sporadic missing time experiences. Perhaps it’s from sleep deprivatio. Or maybe brain degradation. Or possibly generalized atrophy disorder. One moment, I am walking south on Clark Street. The very same Clark Street I have … Continue reading

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aspiration 11/27/2022

Is there a limit to gluttony? I have not heard of any such limit. I like to think I will never reach it. I guess that might count as my aspiration for the day.

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aspiration

Each and every day, I want to unearth a mystery. Float over a hurdle. Do something fulfilling in some way. And when that does not happen, I sleep not a wink. I must answer to myself or else I will … Continue reading

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