an odd day of feeling nothing absolutely nothing at all. i wish that would scare me but today i am not capable of even feeling scared. Which makes this all the more scarier.
what if i am this way tomorrow? will i feel less than i’ve felt today? and the day after that… ?
then one day i might ask what it was like to feel, at one time? and then i would try to imagine what that felt like, back then.
but tonight, it’s a foreign concept. i don’t know why it is that way.