i seem to have these recurring issues (which might not come as a surprise to anyone who has read more than one posting on this blog).
one of the recurring issues which i may not have mentioned is my incapacity to remember things i may have already written in previous posts.
i am reasonably certain i’ve written on a multitude of occasions about this perplexing tendency i sometimes fall into when something excites me. when exaltation succumbs to sheer panic. which makes everything so much harder than it needs to be, and so much less pleasant.
in today’s example, it’s between a new job in a new city or a new job in an old city. as soon as i arrive at one decision, i am assaulted by misgivings that i am making exactly the wrong decision. no matter which decision i make, i know it will be the wrong one. it’s all rather exhausting. i hope you are not like me, in this respect.
maybe whoever is chosen as my next therapist will be able to help me get beyond this. and then i won’t feel the need to write about this over and over and over, and you will be spared repeated readings.