i have made the strange discovery that unfocused possibly unrequited infatuation is an excellent fat burner, equivalent to at least 5 hours of cardio workouts per day. since I met J 20 days ago, i have lost an average of one pound per day. it’s incredible. but i would not recommend it. it’s not for everyone.
now if i can harness this energy towards the good of the universe, that would be quite something. something beyond self. self-fulfillment, self-involvement, self-absorption, self-preservation. just skip over all of this self stuff and find a way be in this world.