money the lack of money has become this odious encumbrance which is nothing really new. it just is louder these days. i fell in love with an amazing an apartment above what was once the top floor of a bakery. it had everything i could want in an urban apartment. windows, light, a garage with a roof desk, beautiful wood floors and door moldings and cabinetry, tall, tall ceilings, vast open space, dog-friendly, the best landlords one could imagine, an entire building to myself, lots of street noise. but once i added up my monthly expenses, dismay set in. the need to start somewhere anew is now more dire than ever. another season has passed and i am am sitting here where i was before, minus a baby tooth.