my big dilemma, my big question over the past century or so has been …
how is it possible to reach some measure of acceptance of who one is and what one has, while also recognizing when change is necessary? is there a crossroads where acceptance and change intersect?
i have a habit of seeing acceptance as a kind of surrender. a defeat. an acknowledgement that i have failed to live up to my hopes and expectations. And now i must work with what i have and where i am. yet that feels unacceptable to me.
I can’t accept such acceptance. things have to change, don’t they? i have to keep striving. maybe the hard part is accepting that change is not really about outcome, but more about motion, just the simple act of motion. if i can accept being in a state of motion, maybe I’ll spend less time worrying about what i am moving towards.