i’m not sure what is going on these days. but i’m kind of in a slump. and i’m not sure how to work through it. i don’t know if writing about it is the answer. maybe it’s the holidays. maybe all of the psyche contortions i perform to make it through the workday…. maybe it’s all adding up and taking its toll upon my soul. there’s been all of these minor disappointments outside of work, too, which i take full responsibility for instigating. and then all of the effort that goes into detaching myself from disappointment. that will sap anyone’s soul.

no wonder i feel so cold and barren and numb and passionless. it’s kind of freaking me out. if anyone is reading this can offer me any guidance for how to get through this, i am at a complete loss and would be immensely appreciative.