an interesting day, sort of, in a virtual sort of way. i noticed on LinkedIn that a student at the school where i seem to be tentatively employed requested to “connect” with me (yes, sadly, even The Lost Pedestrian has a LinkedIn profile) which would be totally fine, except my LinkedIn profile shows that i am actively seeking other employment. what if word would spread about this? would i risk losing my job? is this all part of The Plan to lose my job? But what is the next step in The Plan? Should I even be thinking about this? What does The Plan have in store for me?
I don’t know what is wrong with me. No matter how often i am proven wrong i can’t shed this blind faith that things will work out for me, as they did so often in the second half of September 1988. it’s gotten me into all sorts of trouble, missteps, very bad decisions, wrong turns… i can’t really think of any instances where blind faith has worked favorably for me in this millennium. the instances where things have worked favorably for me have little to do with blind faith. they happen when i stop thinking about what has happened, what will happen or even what is happening today. what is happening today has little bearing on what will happen tomorrow. in fact, these instances of favorability do not really have very much to do with me at all. i just happen to be passing through them at the right time. and usually i am very lucky if i am aware of them at all.
and then there was an email from this recruiter i had never met, nor heard of. she wanted to inform me of a job at an international school in Singapore, which she said she thought would be a good fit for me. now that might be interesting. i really don’t know that much about Singapore except it might be one of the most beautiful names for a city. And it’s not an imaginary city, unlike others i have often visited. most of what i know about Singapore I learned from a Tom Waits song. Could this also be part of The Plan?