atrophy

i am perpetually amazed, stunned if you want to know the truth, at how atrophied my powers of mindful wishful thinking have become. i’m trying everything. chanting. praying. lighting incense. fasting for a week. visualizing.  gazing at the sky. laying on the grass while staring at the sky. fixating on the lake. re-collecting. writing by hand. writing by keyboard. reading your messages, looking for codes.  re-reading my messages. re-re-reading your messages and finding the codes are no longer there, or perhaps someone has encrypted them. i’m at a complete loss as to what to do next. i guess i could say i am flummoxed.

there must be something i am leaving out. some sort of action i haven’t yet enacted. a strategy not yet concocted. because nothing i am doing seems to reach you. and this is inconceivably mystifying to me. i swear, this has never happened before. except maybe 2 or 3 times, and none of them were really my fault.  i can’t make sense of this. i guess i would say i am flummoxed, if i hadn’t already said it. which only shows how atrophied the powers i thought I once had now are. i am failing to manifest something tangible. which is a real problem.

About The Lost Pedestrian

In my wanderings throughout the moments/days/years, I try in earnest to find the mystical within the mundane and the mundane within the mystical, oftentimes confusing one from the other. I have wandered and roamed through many a city, many a town, in a state of wonder and bewilderment, without necessarily going anywhere. I am easily lost, but eventually found. (I am guessing you have just found me). My sincere hope is that you will find Something in this warehouse of thought, memory and false memory, words, numbers, tangents, murmurs, echoes (lots and lots of echoes), voices, dreams, and other paraphernalia.
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