all i feel like writing about tonight is my job, but i am trying not to tell you much more about it, so i won’t.
the one positive thing i can say is that working in this environment is bringing out my most rebellious streaks. I feel a burgeoning sense of defiance that has been lacking in the 21st century. maybe this defiance is what i need to set things in motion to take me into the vast elsewhere.
but the real hope is that once i find my way to that elsewhere, that will be it as far as elsewheres are concerned. i just want a place where i can live in the here. as so we all.