3:30 pm: i just drank 1 cup of coffee. my body feels like a clenched fist but without the fist.

5:00 pm: i seem to have forgotten how to spell. i don’t know what’s come over me.

6:30 pm: maybe dehydrated. maybe it’s just a cramp in the arch of my foot. maybe related to what happened at 3:30 pm.

7:00 pm: at work. I start to read an article in this newspaper i have never bothered to look at before, Investors Business Daily. i can only read a few sentences. the article is describing how Obama is being advised by “left-wing radical activists” on foreign policy. i accidentally drop the newspaper into the recycling bin, and then forget to retrieve it. i will probably get into big trouble. i can feel it.

7:50 pm: at work. loud thunder crashing.

7:55 pm: at work. a very nice woman i have never met thanks me for helping her last week.

8:03 pm: at work. i think the caffeine is beginning to wear off.

8:30 pm: at work. i think my spelling is making a comeback.

8:40 pm: at work. i can’t focus. i worry about the future and feel the weight of the past.

8:51: at work.  i’m getting hungry while still worrying about the future.

9:00 pm: at work. a song starts playing in my head on an endless loop…  somebody singing

don’t

stop

thinking about tomorrow.

9:08 pm: at work. i think i am the only american here.

9:15 pm: working on an online job application. it is asking for my ethnicity. i am confused. eventually i decide upon “Non-Hispanic/Non-Latino.”

9:26 pm: at work. someone is singing:

our patron saint is fighting with the ghost

he’s always off somewhere when i need him most

9:50 pm: i am hungry and frozen and easily intimidated.

10:12 pm: eating this piece of chocolate was not my best idea.