fear and doubt have undone me today. i don’t even really want to talk about it. not here anyway. not now. too many unknowns to navigate. how does one navigate them all? i just can’t do it. maybe my new chiropractor is right. maybe it’s all in my gall bladder. maybe it’s all in my liver.

and it’s just a matter of detoxifying. i just have remind myself to drink dandelion tea and lemon water throughout the day. i must be vigilant about this. if i am not vigilant, other things happen. like finding a hair in a slice of pumpkin bread.

that was not a metaphor. it was a very nice strand of long, thin black hair that i found in a slice of pumpkin bread shortly before dusk on Division Street. i wish i could tell you more about it. and i will, once i know more myself. but it kind of reminded me of you.